It All Starts With a G

~Chapter 5 ~ A Revelation ~

"Text him", Scarlette said as she thrust my phone into my hands.

"I don't even know how to do this anymore" I whined as I looked at my phone.

"What, like you don't know how to text" she exclaimed.

"Of course, I know how to text! I mean I don't know how to even start with him" I whispered.

"How about you just answer his text with a reply. What did the actual first text from him say" she inquired.

It was then I saw she had set the journal down between us and was looking at me with her piercing blue eyes. Eyes that could see down into my soul and make me squirm and her pinning me with a gaze that said you are going to do what I say wasn't helping.

"Could you not stare at me when you are telling me what to do" I sarcastically inquired.

"Quit acting like your twelve and drop you a set and text your man" she said as she rolled her eyes.

"He isn't my man anymore" I said sadly.

"You know what I am getting tired of your ridiculous attitude. I know shit has happened to you and I love you I really do but maybe it's time you realize that life goes on. You have had plenty of time to work through your shit and yet here you sit trying to decide if you are going to let people 4 hours away control you. These are the same people that have not even had the decency to try to talk to you in months and you still let them control you" she said.

She had laid it all out, all of her true feelings toward my situation. I just sat there with my mouth opening and closing like a fish under water. I mean what do you say when you are confronted with the truth. What she did not know and would not until she read the journal was that any contact with Grayson or slip up on my part would be used against us and there was no way I wanted that to happen. If she was not going to read the journal I might as well help her out with that little nugget of information. Then just maybe she would not think I was so pitiful.

"Em, I am sorry, I said that way harsher than I intended" she said softly.

I just held up my hand to stop her because I did not want her to feel bad for being truthful with me. We were to close to let that happen and as shocked as I was I knew it had to come out eventually, just not my first night here.

"Look I am understand why you said what you said, I wasn't expecting it this soon, but I am not mad about it. I mean it hurts to know that is how you feel, but in a weird way I feel this too" I babbled to her.

"No, you don't get to sweep what I said under the rug to make it sting less" she said back to me.

I could see the tears forming in her eyes and I knew her heart, she loved me for me but I also knew she was totally in the dark when it came to why Grayson and I broke up. She was also pretty much in the dark about the rest of it too. Aunt Chris had made sure to explain a lot of it to her children in a slightly altered way so that they would not be to involved in what was going on to protect them since it did affect their immediate family. Unfortunately, Grayson also had to take a fall to keep my family's dirty little secret tucked away and hidden as well. The difference was that Grayson knew why and agreed to protect me but his last words to me chilled me to this day. I remember that day like it was yesterday, he sat across from me in that secret spot that Aunt Chris had brought us to while we said our final good byes. The most painful day of my life was to watch the man I loved with everything I had in me beg me to stay with him. I remember as the words left my lips, "As much as I want to be selfish, I can't. I have to let you go in order for you to remain free. Find someone that will give you everything I will never be able to". I had crushed both our worlds as I kissed him on the lips one final time and walked away as he fell to his knees, with tears running down his face a broken man at such a tender age of 23. He should have never had to experience that and I should have never had to do that to please a family that no longer wished to even have a relationship with me. Even Grayson's father had asked me to not do it and that he would protect me. As much as I loved that entire family, the pressure of my father to protect one of his own convinced me to claim my allegiance falsely and now look at me, I am a wreck of a female that has lost everything.

"Hey look at me Em, does this journal have everything that will explain this entire mess to me" she asked as she bit her lip. She always did this when she was half way between nervous and thinking hard on something. I just nodded my head up and down, giving her the signal that yes that journal contains every little detail of three years of my life.

"Does my mother know any of this" she asked as she narrowed her eyes at me. I could see the proverbial light bulb going on in her head even before I shook my head up and down again.

"Damn it, Em if you don't text Grayson and get him back, then he wins again and we can't let him continue to win" she said fiercely, a fire burning deep in her blue eyes.

"What do you mean by he wins" I asked her, but I knew just by her tone that she knew more than I wanted her to know.

"Emilee is any of this about Uncle Greg" she asked me as neutral as she could but I could tell those words were laced with hate for the one man I hated with a passion. 

 He was the devil hiding behind a family that did not want to his secret out. And it was a secret that could destroy us all. 

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I am splitting up chapter 5 and 6 because it was going to be way too long and I did not want to loose anyone.  Chapter 6 will be up later this weekend and it will spill some more as we start combing through that journal and find out more about Uncle Greg.  What do yall think so far, like or not like?  

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xoxoxo

Ruby