Have u ever felt like ur not good enough and never will be? I have in fact thats all the time. I hate how i hurt the ones closest to me and i cant seem to break that habit. I have a lot of bad habits like chewing my nails or crossing the street without looking first. I have wanted to kill myself ever since i hurt the one i care about most the first time. I have never had this big of an attachment to anyone ever. I had always pushed everyone away and if people asked me if i was ok i would just say " im fine" not just to make sure they didnt worry about me it was also because i knew that the people that were asking wouldnt really care. They all have ther own problems and i have mine. I cant but think of killing myself because of something stupid i keep doing over and over, and it hurts to that one true person is gonna leave me behind and i will have no one...just me alone and lost. Right? I cant help it and it sucks that i know that sometime soon it will happen i know not now... Maybe not next month or even next year... But i know it will happen sooner or later because of how i am.
