It's just a boy a boy that you love

Uh

Y/n POV
He started walking closer to grab it from me but then he gets closer so I back up until I hit the wall and he smiles at me
Jay what are you doing
"I love you"
Jay please stop
He comes close to where our foreheads are touching and he leans in and kisses me really hard
The only thing is that either he backs up or I push him away and I don't want to hurt his feelings so I end up kissing him back he backs up
"Why did you kiss me back"
I don't know Jason
I start ranting about how joe will be mad and I start to like move away from the wall he says
"Your so pretty when your stressed"
and he pushes me up against the wall and really starts kissing me
This is the point where I can't do this I push him away
JASON STOP your my best friend ok I know your Joes twin but your not him ok I can't just kiss you and be like oh yeah it's totally fine because yanno I'm practically kissing joe
"Y/n I'm sorry don't be mad at me"
Jason I'm not mad just don't do it
"Ok ok I promise"
We continue packing boxes at then put them in the car he only takes the clothes and puts them in the room because he's trying to find someone
After we get all his stuff it's like really late joe goes to sleep and I'm sitting on the couch just thinking about what happened then jay comes out and comes to talk to me

Jason's POV
Hey
"Hey"
I'm really sorry about earlier I really need to handle myself I'm sorry I threw myself on you I'm sorry I pushed you into the wall
"Jay were cool ok it's ok I understand that you just got a divorce and I understand ok you don't need to explain anything to me ok"
Ok I'm sorry though
"Ok Jason"

The next day

Y/n POV
I wake up and slipped out of bed and went to the living room and went to sit on the couch and I started thinking what would've happened if I dated jay instead I wonder where we would be right now I wonder if I would end up kissing joe like how it happened with jay I really just need to be alone so I quickly write a note saying I'll be back I quickly get dressed without waking joe and I leaved I got to the spot that joe and I go to if joe comes looking he'll come here but whatever

Joes POV
JASON WAKE UP
"Whyyy"
Because y/n left
"What"
She left this note
"Oh god Joseph it says I'll be back"
Oh I didn't read that part
"Well maybe you should"
Should I go look for her
"NO"
why
"Just leave her alone"
Did I do something
"No it's me"
What why
"Because joe I'm sorry but I keep throwing myself on her I literally can't help it she's the best person I ever met"
Jason I understand ok but I just hope she's ok and that all
"So your not mad"
No

Later

Y/n POV
I come back and joe comes running at me and picks me up and kisses me
"Where were you"
I was out
"Please don't leave like that again"
Ok ok
"You had me so worried"
I left a note
"Yeah but I didn't read the I'll be back part and Jason had to tell me"
Ohhh wow
"I should be mad"
Why
"I don't know"
Ok joe
I pat him on the shoulder and then I walk over and sit on the couch I put my head in my hands

Jason's POV
I look at joe then look at y/n joe already knows that I want to talk to her alone so he goes into their room and I go over and sit next to her
Hey
I put my hand on her back and she moves over
Y/n are you ok
"No jay I'm not"
Is it because of me
"I would hate to say yes but jay it is Jason I need some space"
She starts to cry
She gets up and so do I
"Jason please leave me alone for a little please don't talk to me"
She walks out the house

Y/N POV
I walk out and I wipe the tears off my face and I go to our spot again I realize that joe and I have never climbed up the rocks any farther so I do and it's a cliff up higher I sit there thinking what my life would be like if I never moved to Washington or if I never went to Granite falls high I turn around to go down and my foot slips on the rock and this so the moment I think I'm going to die I'm just hanging off a cliff and no one to help me but I guess it doesn't matter I should just die anyways no one wants me here and I definitely know jay doesn't so.....