Law & Life: Bensidy

life goes on.. or not.

Brian having a girlfriend has made me lose all hope. I needed to get over it. I decided to go out to celebrate the fact the we had just convicted the men who raped Jen. I went alone hoping to leave with someone. the bar was full of men drinking and playing pool. none had acknowledged me.

I had been there for an hour when a man walked in the bar, alone. he was very handsome and some how resembled Cassidy in a way which drew me to him. he sat just two stools away from me. "a beautiful woman like you shouldn't be sitting in a bar alone." I blushed but had yet to reply.

"I'm Bruce." knowing that he wouldn't be satisfied until I told him my name, I answered. "Olivia." a smile grew on his face. "that's a lovely name olivia." he was good. we talked for hours, I told him where i worked, some hobbies, nothing personal. when I had decided to leave he walked me out side. "You're a very beautiful person olivia.. you know, my house isn't far from here, just a couple blocks." I chuckled. "well neither is mine, a block actually."

he looked impressed with my sassy response. "so you tell me olivia, where am I going?" I haven't had company in a while. my co workers would barely even come over. we ended up walking to my apartment, it was when we got to my front door when I started to get nervous. I couldn't tell him to leave because I've done got him all excited.

instead, I tried to go in a different direction and ask if he was up to watching a movie. he laughed "c'mon, we're adults olivia." I found it odd that his said my name in nearly every sentence. he came up behind me as I placed my purse on the coffee table an started rubbing my left shoulder.

he moved my hair to where all of it was hanging on my right shoulder. I was so nervous that I couldn't even tell if it was in a good way or bad. he started kissing my neck. I knew exactly what he wanted, I just didn't know if I was going to give it to him. this could end badly.

he turned me around and wrapped his arms around my waist. I couldn't breathe, his face was coming closer and closer to mine and the butterflies in my stomach grew. he softly brushed his lips against mine and I responded by pushing my mouth into his. this isn't right, I don't even know this guys last name and he is in my apartment, touching me.

I guess the kissing got boring so he started kissing my neck again. it was then when my thoughts, feelings, and emotions came to life and I blurted out, "Brian.."

suddenly the world stopped. did I really just say his name? I hate how he's on my mind this much. Bruce had obviously stopped kissing me and I felt embarrassed. he was looking at me as if I had issues and by that point I think I do. ".. you should probably go." he did as I offered and I didn't blame him.

I couldn't take this any longer, I needed Brian in my life and it killed me. I grabbed my keys and headed out of the apartment.

I was surprised at the fact that after all these years I still knew where he lived. not even 10 minutes later there I was, standing outside of his apartment building (if he still lived here). I was so frightened at the fact that I just showed up, without calling or anything but I couldn't wait any longer. I knocked on the door that I believed to be his.

"yes?" a brunette woman answered the door, he had moved on quickly. I flashed my badge at the woman. "detective benson, I'm looking for Brian Cassidy, are you his girlfriend?" she giggled a little. "he's not my boyfriend, I just met him tonight. is everything okay?" I was relieved to know he was single.

"uh yes, I need to speak with him alone about a case if you don't mind?" I was lying my ass of just to be alone with him and I don't even know why. "liv?" I looked passed the woman and saw Brian standing in the living room.

"Brian I should go. I can't be involved with the cops" the woman grabbed her coat. "no Nina it's fine! Liv what do you want?" I was suddenly having doubts but I was not about to back down after the trouble I went through. "I have a couple questions to ask you, alone"

I heard the woman whisper sorry and hurry out of the apartment. Brian looked really confused but I just walked in and shut the door. his power over me was so strong that I couldn't resist myself. I walked straight toward Brian, breaking no eye contact, and rammed my lips into his.

he was resistant at first but he knew that I needed this. his hands tickled my waist from how slowly he was beginning to hold me. I was moving very quickly and I knew I would regret this in the morning but I didn't care. I wanted him, I needed him and having him has made me the happiest woman alive.