Chorus | Garrett Watts x Bobby Burns

Prologue

Hi, I'm bi.
I mean- Bobby.
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"Well, that was much easier than I thought it would be." Bobby thought out loud as began to pack his recording set up, extremely tired of the all stress that had been building up leading to this moment. He knew all too well that as soon as he uploaded that particular video, his phone would blow up with messages from his friends, family and his fans. Of course he appreciated the support, but what he did not like was being at the centre of attention, and that video would most likely make that come true. Bobby sighed while looking back at the video. It didn't help that his friends had kept asking him when he'd come out to his fans. As much as he knew they were tying to help, he felt extremely pressured into doing it. It was now or never though, he knew he wouldn't have the guts to do it later on. It wasn't often where he felt like he needed to be serious with his fans, he mainly started up his channel to distract himself from everything going on in his personal life anyway. To think that now he needed to share his personal feelings to his fans felt wrong. This was turning into his job though, so it also felt needed for.

As soon as Bobby finished packing up his equipment, he resorted to laying onto his bed and staring up at his blank ceiling. Just thinking about uploading that video sent shivers down his spine, but as much as his thoughts protested against doing it, he knew that he had to. He finally had the chance to put it out there and move on with his life, and nothing could stop him.

He had known that he was bisexual for years now, and hiding that from everyone was a tough thing to do, especially now that he has thousands of people looking up to him. Ever since Shane Dawson made a "hater" series on him, more people clicked on his subscribe button and started watching his videos, and that's where the nightmares began. Overall, he was scared. No, he was absolutely terrified of screwing up on camera, and at this point his secrets could no longer be secrets. He was scared that they would be exposed in a terrible way, and many fans would be disgusted by him; that's why he had to say it himself before anyone else could say it for him. But although he was frightened, pouring his heart out into one video seemed somewhat easy. Though, the hard bit was yet to come, actually uploading the video to YouTube where thousands, or maybe even millions could see his confession.

A lot of fans had suspected he was bisexual ever since he started hanging out with Shane Dawson and all his friends, before that though, everyone thought he was as straight as a pole. He thought that it was funny how hanging out with new people could instantly change everyone's opinion of you. He was glad he had his friends to support him, though. He knew they would be by his side no matter what happened.

Bobby tried keeping his cool while his mind went all over the place. A lot of his fans would be accepting, but there's always that small portion of people who would judge you just by who you like. Most of all, he didn't want to be stereotyped because of his sexuality. He is him, Bobby Burns, the guy who had his YouTube channel blown up by Shane Dawson (in a good way) After all, it doesn't change his personality one bit.

Bobby swiftly sat up, knowing what he had to do.
"I should start editing the video soon" He thought, "I don't want to start regretting it again"
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It took a long time to edit, mostly because of the debates he started in his mind on whether he should actually upload it, or leave it. Every answer that came out of his mind was "I need to do this" and "it's too late to start regretting it now, there's no turning back." He was proud of the finished product, it gave off a "I don't care if you judge me for this" vibe, which was exactly what he wanted. He had the upload screen ready, with the finished recording pending on his screen. All he needed was a title and a description, then he was all set to upload the video. He believed that the title should just be simple. "Coming out" was the first thing that came up in his mind, and he thought it was acceptable, so he settled on that. Lastly was the description, the same description in which he put in every video. "I can't believe I'm doing this now" he thought while he sat in silence in front of the upload screen, tapping his finger in rhythm to the song that was blasting through his ears.

Bobby looked down as his hands. It was now that he was regretting even thinking about doing this in the first place. To some it may not have seemed like a big deal to do this, hence why it was easy for them to come out, but for him it was a different story. This had made Bobby over think things a lot, which only increases his fear of coming out. He then looked at the screen once again, just starring at it for what seemed like hours.

"Fuck it"