An Endless Journey Of Love ~ Sesshomaru X Reader

To Let You Go and To Have You Here In Front Of Me

I head back home, I'm completely mentally and emotionally exhausted at this point. I walk to the eating hall, the food has just started to set on the table. My parents all look up to me surprised.

"____________, you came back home early today. You look really tired are you alright?" My mother asks concerned.

"Yea, I'm fine, it's been a long day." I reply sitting down on the mat.

"I'm sure it has. How was your day with Lord Taiyo?" My father asks me.

"It was actually going great, it was fun." I reply flatly.

"Was going great? Did something happen?" My mother asks me.

"Yes, apparently something urgent and important came up back home for him. A fellow lord important to his family has come to visit him and the lord's daughter came along too and has asked for him." I tell them.

They look at each other with a look of understanding.

"Sorry to hear that dear, I hope you're ok." My mother says.

"Just when I thought that I have found someone, things take an unexpected turn. I feel so unlucky when it comes to love, I swear at this point I might as well marry my koto." I say with a self-mocking laugh.

"____________, you can't lose faith. Be hopeful, we're sure that things will work out and you'll find that someone. You never know when that special person will come to you, but somewhere in this world, there is someone who loves you. You probably just haven't found him yet." My mother says giving me a hug.

"Somewhere in this world.... I don't know if I have the patience to wait for him to someday show up in front of me. I might as well just forget about finding love, I'll just be happy on my own. It's not that it's impossible." I say with a sigh.

"If that's what you want then we have no obligation to interfere with your choices, because we as your parents has said that we will support you not matter what. Just make sure that that's what you want, to put a hold on a possible happiness." My father says to me.

I look at them, his words, his words are the words that I have told Rin and Yorokobi before they left. It's so ironic, I tell them to make sure the choices that they make in the future will bring them happiness , but I'm thinking of throwing away mine over the subject of love.

"You're right father, guess I just have to hold out a little longer and hope for the best." I sigh.

"We can forget about the matter for the time being, you're still in your prime years and you still have a whole life in front of you." My mother says with a smile.

"Yea." I reply.

We eat our dinner with small casual conversations to put behind my whole love problems. We all have tea together until the crickets tells us to turn in. We bid each other goodnight and head to our rooms. I change into my night wear and let my hair down. My mind is completely exhausted, I'm trying to keep my emotions together but it's hard. So I sit down and pull out my koto. I play songs after songs on it till my fingers are sore once again, I inhale and exhale deeply. I put my hands over my face and press my palms against my eyes, darkness surrounds me. I don't think I can sleep at this rate, I'm so stressed out. I look out my window and see the crescent moon, I then sigh. I get up and go to my treasure box that contains all of my precious items, on top of my pale blue kimono is the jade bottle containing the fragrant olive perfume. It lays beautifully in the middle of the silk kimono, just like how I placed it. I pick it up gently, blow out the candles, and walk to my window and sit down on the ledge. I then open up the cork that prevented the peachy smell from coming out, the moment the cork is removed the relaxing smell flows to my nose and fills the room with a faint smell of sweet peach. I immediately feel relaxed, but then let out a sigh.