I walk out of healthcare, and of fucking course. Who do I see? Fucking Max with his new girl.
She was petite, very petite. Her hair was long and her skin was fair. Hmm, guess that was what I was lacking. Guess he didn't like that brown on brown action and that's why he dumped me.
His arm was around her and they were talking about something, something I couldn't hear. He dropped her off at the stairwell and kissed her goodbye.
Fuck. I wanted to hate him but I couldn't help it.
Those lips.
I missed those lips more than I missed anything in this world. When I kissed him, when his lips touched mine, I felt invincible.
God, I miss that feeling.
"Sophia!"
I see a blur of green and suddenly, I feel someone grab my arm and pull me out of my thoughts.
"Maria! Jesus... you scared the hell out of me... Wait. What the hell happened to your hair?!"
"I dyed it green! And bitch... you were just standing there!"
Maria always told us she was going to dye her hair green, but woah, I never thought she'd actually do it. Strangely enough, it really kind of suited her though.
I decide to share my troubles with her.
"I just saw Max with some new girl."
"Oh shit, what the fuck... let's kill that bitch."
"Oh my god, Maria, I swear, you're crazy. You'd actually kill her."
"Anything for you baby."
Maria winks at me and I roll my eyes at her. We walk to the caf and join Julia and Ellie at our usual booth.
I found it strange that Julia wasn't eating anything, she loves food - more than anything. Ellie and her seemed to be talking about something, but immediately shut up when they noticed Maria and me.
"Woah guys, what's the big secret. Why so hush hush all of a sudden? Hope y'all aren't shit talking us!"
"Maria, it's nothing," Ellie replied very sternly.
She gives a look to Maria and me, that "I'll tell you guys later when Julia isn't here" look.
We shut up about it and proceed to tell each other about our days.
"I saw Max. With a new girl," I share with them as I unpack my lunch and begin eating.
"Wait, hold on, wasn't he just with you last week..?" Julia says, taking a sip from her water bottle.
"Yep. Guess I was just another fling to him," I reply.
"Sophia, you were way too good for him anyway," Ellie reassures me.
"Yea, what a fucking loser," Maria adds in. She then takes one of my baby carrots, holds it up, and says, "Besides, wasn't his dick like, this tiny."
I laugh, almost choking on my food. Maria was always the type to try to cheer you up.
"I guess, I just wish I could get over him as easily as he did me."
All of a sudden, Julia abruptly gets up and tells us she needs to go.
"What's up with that?" Maria asks.
"Uhm, she's probably just going to see AJ," Ellie replies.
"Wow, ditching us for the boyfriend again?" I say, rolling my eyes.
"Hey... you don't know what's going on in her life, okay...?" Ellie says protectively.
"Jeez Ellie, why are you defending her. And are you gonna let Sophia and I in on that big secret or what?"
I can see Ellie contemplating whether or not she should tell us, and eventually, she opens her mouth to speak.
"Uhm, Julia is just going through a lot right now. You guys should ask her if you want to know, it's not my place to tell..."
"Oh, okay."
This pissed me off a little bit. I hate secrets, always have, always will. My last group of friends were always keeping secrets from each other, and that's why I eventually dropped them. I did not need a repeat with my new friends.
I decide to change the topic because I didn't want to read too much into it.
I sigh, then confess, "Guys... I want a boyfriend..."
"Sophia. Trust me, we know. All you ever talk about is getting a boyfriend, especially after what happened with Max. You're fucking boy crazy man."
"Hey!"
"Well Maria's not wrong... you're always talking about boys, but the last time you were with one, look how that ended..."
"I just want to find love! What's so wrong with that?" I say, feeling a little attacked.
"Nothing, nothing at all. As long as you aren't desperate, which Sophia, I hate to say, but you are so fucking desperate." Julia says, suddenly coming back and joining in as if she was never gone.
"That's easy for you to say Julia, you have a boyfriend," I reply, sighing once again.
Julia met AJ freshman year, and they've been dating ever since. Meanwhile, I'm in my senior year and can't even get a boyfriend that'll last me more than a month.
"Yea, a boyfriend that you're obsessed with and always leave us for - you wanna tell us what that was about?" Maria adds in.
Julia quickly defends herself, "It's not like that."
"Then what is it like?" I say.
Ellie jumps in, "Julia, just tell them..."
Julia seems annoyed, but she eventually gives in, "You guys have to swear on your fucking lives that this will never come out okay?"
"Yes of course."
"We swear."
"I'm...pregnant..." Julia says, a little shamefully.
Everyone goes quiet, and it takes me a moment to realize the words that came out of her mouth.
Then, I finally process it, "PREGNANT?!" I unintentionally shout, startled.
"Oh my God, shut the fuck up Sophia!" Maria says, looking around to see if anyone heard.
"SOPHIA!" Ellie shuts me up, putting a hand over my mouth.
"Sorry, sorry. I'm just, so shocked," I say, realizing how stupid that was.
"Imagine how I feel." Julia retorts.
Maria consoles her, "Don't worry Julia. We're here for you. All of us."
"When did you find out? Did you tell AJ yet?" I ask her, still shocked.
"Well... that's the thing... I'm pregnant, but AJ's not the father."
