the genius' first love

10 Three gorilla

"You look so beautiful Xhemin Lae"

"You look so beautiful Xhemin Lae"

"You look so beautiful Xhemin Lae"

"You look so beautiful Xhemin Lae"

"Okay fine, I know I'm pretty!"

I covered my face with my hands to wash away the emotions. His words echoed in my head over and over— it was giving me severe headache!

I looked through the glass window on my left and busied myself admiring the beautiful waves kissing the sand. The sky was clear and the sun was scorching outside.

I remembered those wonderful summers that me, Huzey and Ziggy spent on beach during our childhood years. How petty we had to grow up fast, our summers these days were spent on academic researches and trainings.

The team was on a seafood restaurant situated along the beach. This place was just few kilometers away from the university circle where we were staying. We were currently celebrating the success of Huzey and Ziggy's performance.

The view was so refreshing it made me forget my recent predicament.

"What are you thinking?" Huzey asked me when he noticed that I was lost in my own train of thoughts.

"Err.. nothing.." His question crashed me back to reality. I turned to his side and realized there was only the two of us left sitting in the table right now. I wondered where Ziggy and coach went to.

"Not a convincing alibi." He let go of the newspaper that he was holding and stared at me with suspicion. He squinted his eyes while scrutinizing my expression trying to figure out if I was lying or not. Huzey knew me very well, and this time he knew there was something bothering me that I wasn't telling him.

Huzey and I had been the best of friends, and there was nothing in this world we would not tell each other. This was the first time I felt hesitant to convey my thoughts to him. But the thing that was bothering me was quite complicated. Truth was I was dying to tell him yet, I didn't know how to tell him these things. How could I convey something that I myself was having hard time deciphering?

"Have you ever been in love?" I asked in my attempt to confess the things running my mind.

"Why are you in love?" He asked in a straight face.

"I don't know" I answered as I heaved a sigh. I looked at him with a tiredly gaze as I confessed my agony.

How can someone differentiate whether they are in love or if they are just having a system failure in their heart? The beast and I crossed the line earlier. We did something that we shouldn't have done. The last time I checked, he was my nemesis. From what happened this morning, I didn't know how to label him anymore.

"With that man?" He asked again.

I lowered my head as my face went red with embarrassment. I did not respond and Huzey knew by then that the answer to his recent question was a yes.

"Do you like him?" He asked again as he pulled out the newspaper again and flipped through the pages.

"I don't know"

"Do you like seeing him always?"

"I don't know"

"Does he makes you happy?"

"I don't know"

I was not lying to Huzey, everything between the beast and I confused me. I was feeling so helpless that I needed Huzey's confirmation or opinion over this thing. This was what I usually do whenever there was something that I couldn't figure out, I always sought his opinion. This time, I was dying for him to tell me what to do.