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daniel's pov

for the past few days, i was harrased by fans. i was so sad. not because of the fans harrasing me. but, because that girl is not somi. she's min yang.

daehwi told me everything. it wasn't her choice. "hyungnim." daehwi entered my room. "don't you want to eat?"

"i miss her, david lee." i told him and he smiled. "i know she's not somi but her smile haunts me. her soft hands. her sweet voice. i miss it all."

"do you know why, hyung?" daehwi asked. "hyung, you like min yang noona."

"b-but she's not somi." i said.

"why? did someone told you that the only girl you should like for the rest of your life is somi noona?" i shook my head. "go to her. don't kill yourself yet."

i chuckled and thanked him. i like jung min yang.

***

i quickly went to their dormitory. i knocked and someone familliar opened the door. she let me in so i did. i sat at the couch.

"min yang?" i asked. she looked upstairs.

"everyday, every night, every hour, every minute, we can hear soft sobs of her. her eyes are so swollen. she never go out of room not unless its time to eat."

"i need to see her now." it seems like, she's hesitating. but, i badly want to see her. "if i can't see her now, i'll die. please, let me see her."

she went upstairs to call min yang. when i saw min yang i smiled at her. she looked shocked to see my smile. "hi." she smiled bitterly.

"why... are you here?" she asked and i just walked towards her.

"i told you. you're my strength." i told her. she did not smiled at me.

she just replied something that made my smile disappear. "it's not me. it's somi."

"it's you. sincerely. you're my strength." i insist.

"okay, let's say its me. i may be your strength but i'm also your weakness. i'm pulling you down, daniel." she said and left.

i was left dumbfounded. i'm crying, for the second time, i was rejected.

***

i went back to our dorm. i feel sick. nah, i'm sick. my whole body is so down. i'm so down. i'm gonna throw up.

"daniel." seongwoo hyung entered my room.

"get the hell out of here." i said and he did. i don't want anyone to see me like this. this is just so gay. but, damn. i'm not gay, man.

jellydan: min yang, i don't care if you're pulling me down. in a few months, our group will disband anyways. i'm willing to leave the group for you.cc

yes, love will drive you crazy and that's exactly what's happening to me at the moment. love is driving me crazy.

i waited for minutes, hours, even days. but i receive no reply. i haven't see her.

***

today, i went to the agency. pink carousel's dance practice room is empty. it's a new sight for me. pink carousel is always here. they are practicing day and night since their debut is close.

its actually surprising that they're not around today. i haven't seen min yang too. she's always at the building but we don't meet. she's avoiding me.

i went to the recording studio next to their practice room. pink carousel is there. jung min yang is there. she's smiling. her swollen eyes are gone. i tried to smile as i enter but i can't.

"you'll be featured on one of their album's track." their manager said. that just means, i'll be working with the girl that rejected me.

"as a rapper? if i'll be a rapper on the track, i can't accept it woo jim and guanlin are also good rappers." i said. i was about to exit but i heard a voice of a girl and it made me stay.

"i wan't to work with you." it's min yang.