Everytime It Rings

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    Slut, whore, ugly, mistake, worthless, God's mistake. Everything I've heard before day after day, text after text. My life is hell what's the point you might think. What the reason for me sharing all this. The point is to show you even though life is bad, it can turn out good.

    My life was a worthless train wreck. My head filled with the thoughts of someone insane, or so said, my parents. Every time I tried to tell someone they called me an idiot, psycho, and or attention seeker.

    It's funny how everyone says tell someone but when you do they don't help you. I wanted help. Needed help. I feared everytime my phone rings, or when I saw a kid at school. 

    I walk with my head down every day. Though my grades were impeccable I still never hear the end of it from my dad. Always on me to make A's, never fail for failure is what no man wants to marry. 

    My dad is an alcoholic always saying crazy shit that never made sense. My mom a Geologist always traveling. She was barely home so I was with my dad all the time. He started drinking when I started telling him about the texts and words.

    My mom got a new job as a head Geologist, she never really talks to me much. Same goes for my dad, not many words and when he does he sounds crazy. 

    The reason I keep my phone still is for my best friend Samuel. I call him Sammy he lives in the South of Alabama as I live in Georiga. Every summer I go to see him. We alternate every year this year he's coming to see me.

    It was just now the beginning of May only 30 days till he came to see me. I counted down the days. Sammy and I have been best friends since we were 6 years old. He's like my brother, unlike my real brother. He ran away when I was 9 when the bullying started. I'm now 15 and God I miss him so damn much.

   My brother, Kam he was everything for me always wanted to protect me. When the bullying started he saw everything happen. I guess it drove him insane my dad didn't do anything and my mom just said he's most likely dead.

    I still believe he's alive and once im 16 im going to find him. But besides that, I'm stuck here for a while. So a little rundown of my life so far never the less though things may change. Maybe my life will have a good ending where I find love and happiness. Or maybe it'll be hell forever?