My Only Regret

21st November,
Canada, Earth.

Things...
Things have changed. And most for the best. That day not only the Reapers turned away from us, but we were given so much more. Synthetic and organic life somehow came so close to each other, becoming almost one. We were offered a massive amount of knowledge and synthetics were offered what they had always desired; to understand us; to know what it means to have a soul. Only for a brief moment those changes seemed alien to us but then we finally understood why that happened. The answer was right there, in front of our very own eyes when the Reapers assisted us in rebuilding everything from the beginning; when our once mortal enemy shared with us knowledge and wisdom of the past races. We welcomed a new age of peace and now we can all dream of a brighter and more promising future than the one we had so many nightmares about during the evasion. Now, we can all raise our heads to the sky and smile at the beautiful sight of the crystal blue colour and the sun. No fear. No terror. Just relief and satisfaction.
Of course it will take time to heal our wounds from the attack and the traumas that the past few years scarred us with; to mourn all those who sacrificed themselves, the fallen heroes of our time. But we are going to move on; we are finally going to live. The days of survival are all far behind us and we can return to that time when no one was threating to destroy every single race and species of the galaxy. We can finally sit down and enjoy life...
It took me a while to comprehend with this new order of things but I manage somehow to become part of it. I wish you were here to witness everything that you fought so hard for. I wish you were here to just watch outside a window and feel contented with the silence and sight of children playing joyfully.
I wish...

I just wish....
Remember that talk? Back in London. We were in the middle of a biblical catastrophe and yet you found time to have a little 'good-bye' chat with all of us. Remember ours? I told you that I had almost no regrets. Everything that I did, before and after I met you were all choices of my own; desires of my heart and tough decisions that I had to take. I had no regrets back then, when I was so sure that it would be the end for all of us. Yet now, when I have all of my life ahead of me, there is one small thing that's eating my heart; that I have been meaning to tell you. My one and only regret that will follow me to death is that I didn't jump off when you told me to stay behind. Maybe then I would have saved you somehow or at least die by your side. Yes, that thought, made me think of death in a pleasant manner. But I couldn't. I couldn't just act based on a completely selfish thought. I couldn't risk the mission that you gave your life for.
You really did save us all. I don't know how, but your choice gave birth to a tomorrow that I regret not sharing it with you. Heh, the view isn't making this easier. I wish you were here, right next to me. Best view in all Canada accompanied with the best wine and steak sandwich.

No matter what the next day will bring, I'll face it knowing that it is for you. In your memory. In our love.

I miss you,
Goodbye... Commander.