"I love you sooo much Boo"
"You do?"
" Yes, yes i do. Id do anything for you. Make sure that no one ever hurts you or messes with you. Do anything in the world to make you happy."
"Thats exactly how i feel"
" :) "
I still remember every conversation we ever had. That night in the hospital room i read every single text message we ever sent to each other. Thats 50,707 texts to be exact. Texts messages full of pain, love, sorrow, humor,even just messing around with eachother. It was all there on my phone now rushing through my brain. I couldnt take it any more! Every emotion thats possible to feel, i was feeling right then all at once. All the memories hurt me more then ever. It was crushing my heart. It felt like an elephant just decided to step on me, crushing my chest, sufficating me. I coulnt stand it any more. I ripped out the two IVs out of my arm along with all the random things connected to my body. Mechines started beeping out of controlably. I didnt care. I broke everything in my path. Smashed all the vases full of flowers that people gave to me. I ripped down every curtin in the room. Soon enough i was screaming the most horrible things i never thought of saying. Cursing at the world, cursing at my life.
I slamed the door open and stormed out of my hospital room. By then nurses and security came and tryed to stop me. I kicked screamed, knocked a few nurses out. I wouldmt let anything get in my way. I knew i couldnt live a normal life without him much longer. I knew i just had to see him. I had to be wrapped in his strong imbrase once again. I had to see his big smile, his bright personality that just lit the entire room. By now i was running down the halls. Running like my life depened on it. It did depend on it actually. I had to see him agai. But how, how could i touch him again if he was so far away?!? I knew what i had to do.....kill myself.
I ran and finally reached my destination. I was practically out of breath. You know that feeling when your out of breath and your chest begins getting cold? Imagine that just even worse. I walked out the doors to balcony. I looked out over the town trying to catch my breath. It seemed like everyone in the world is constantly rushing to get somewhere. Rushing to work, rushing home to their home, rushing to get away from someone, for me i was rushing to death. It was 2:37 a.m. August 18. I was ready to jump. I stood on the rails. It was cold of my bare feet. I closed my eyes, bent my knees ready to spring to death. Then it hit me. The most powerful force wrapped around my waist. Trying to hold my back....i think it was him. I fought it and jumped any ways. The fall was slow, the death was instant. Every memory of my entire life played in my head like a movie film. Until it faded away to darkness.
I saw a small light. It looked like a star in the sky. Then it began getting brighter and brighter. I think i finally reached him. I saw him. He was far away though. I screamed his name and he grinned at me. His eyes sparkled brighter then ever. I began running towards him. It felt like i couldnt run fast enough. It was as if i was in slow motion. I couldnt reach him fast enough. He reached out to me and i touched the tip of his finger tips as he faded away. I couldnt believe it. I dropped to my knees. I wasnt crying, i wasnt screaming, I felt no pain what so ever i just layed there wit my head in my hands. I heard his voice wispering my name. His voice began to get louder and louder until he was screaming my name. I didnt want to open my eyes knowing i would just be disapointed again. I opened them anyways......it turns out he never left me....?
I was laying in my bed back in my room. He was sitting there, right infront of me. What is this??? Is it just an illusion?? But no. He was really there. He smiled at me as i realized that this was all just a dream..... a nightmare i should. A very realistic nightmare...hell. He crawled on top of me and brushed his lips gently across mine then kissed my forehead. He chuckled because the look on my face was so rediculous. I told him everything my whole nightmare. He stopped me in the middle of my sentece and kissed my lips. It was the slowwest. sweetest kiss we ever shared. He pulled slightly away and wispered:
" I wont be going anywhere, forever remember? Our love will last forever. nothing will never happen to you cuz i protect to and you know that"
He was right , bout everything.We will last forever. Nothing will ever happen to me cuz he protects me. I guess the truth is forever. I never lost him forever. Instead he was there right by my side, i was in his arms FOREVER.
