I awaited anxiously in the hospital during the surgery thing. I was pacing Yamato was sitting in the waiting room watching me.
"Worrying isn't going to make anything better." He says I glare at him.
"It's all my fault he's in this to begin with. If I had just been on guard Kabuto wouldn't have gotten me." I say hating myself for what happened.
"Don't blame yourself for it. Kakashi is tough he'll pull through..." Yamato said assuring me.
Then lady Tsunade and Sakura walk out Yamato stands up and walks to my side.
"He's in a coma he lost a lot of blood. Hopefully he'll pull through..." Tsunade says.
I felt my legs loose their strength I fell over Yamato caught me before I hit the ground. My vision was growing blurry I struggled to get air back into my lungs.
"Hey calm down if you don't you'll hyperventilate..." Yamato said.
I just cried real genuine tears. I sobbed as Yamato held me in his arms I sobbed into his chest.
"They all leave. They all leave. Every time. I lost him I lost another friend. Why? Why me? Why won't anyone stay?" I cry out.
Yamato hugged me bringing me close to him. He was warm and gentle he was crying the only friend I have now. I'll do whatever it takes to protect him.
"Can I see him...?" I mutter.
Tsunade nods and escorts me in to see him. He was shirtless and hooked up to a machine and an IV. He was pale his mask was removed and a oxygen mask was put over his mouth.
"I'll leave you here then..." Tsunade says ushering everyone out.
I just looked at him I pulled up a chair and sat beside him. I just sat there I'd occasionally talk to him or cry and apologize.
This went on for 3 days every day the nurses would come in and bring me food however they would always bring it back out. I didn't eat and I didn't sleep for 3 days I just watched over him.
Then Yamato and Tsunade walked in. Yamato sighed and placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Hey why don't you go home and rest. I'll take care of things here..." he offers I shake my head.
"Look y/n killing yourself will not make things any better. When was the last time you ate or slept?" He asked I shrug.
"I'm not tired and I'm not hungry." I respond.
"Look he's getting stronger he should be waking up soon..." Sakura said.
I turn and see her in the door way she must not have been getting much sleep either. She had dark circles under her eyes and they were puffy from crying. Poor girl she lost Sasuke and now her Sensi was in the hospital.
I took their advice and went home I walked in silence and alone. I walked by the place where I first met him. Then Where I cried fake tears.
I slam the door behind me anger and sadness causing my stomach to hurt. He almost died Kakashi almost died because of me. I scream and punch the wall leaving a huge hole in the wall I scream and cry out in pain. I start throwing things and knocking everything over. Insanity had set in about damn time honestly it took you long enough. I couldn't get the image of Kakashi's eyes growing cold and lifeless. I was going to kill everyone in the akatsuki, Orochimaru for giving me this damn curse mark on my neck. Then I'll kill Saskue for what he's done.
Dead dead dead dead all of them dead. I laugh tears rolling down my face. Dead dead dead dead what was it that my drunken father always said.
"No matter what insanity is a last resort. Give in to the madness but if you do you may never find yourself again..." that was it there was so much truth in his words.
I screamed again and cried and then started to laugh hysterically. Everyone is dead no one really stays everyone leaves at some point in life. I'm always alone it's a cycle it's a circle I just keep going around and round nothing changes. I walk out to the roof and stand at the edge of the bricks.
Yeah I wanna know what will happen if I leave first huh? What will it be? I'm going to jump. (She's in a 8 story house/apartment thing.) I look at my feet and then step off laughing and smiling. Jokes on you world I'll see you all in hell.
Then a pair of arms grabbed me and held me bridal style. I open my eyes and see a familiar face and white hair. I sigh and look up at him. "Really what the hell were you thinking?" He said obviously mad. He landed on the rooftop from where I jumped. I laughed
"I just wanted to see what would change. Damn I must have really lost it. I'm seeing you here but I know you're still at the hospital. Actually for all I know I could still be falling..." I explain looking down tempted to jump I back away from the edge.
Kakashi looked at me confused.
"What do you mean? First: sure I was stabbed and I might have lost consciousness but Lady Tsunade healed me. Second: what do you mean you wanted to see what would change?" He asked my eyes stared into his.
"Everyone leaves me, everyone changes, nothing stays normal. Tell me why are people stupid and why don't they think? I don't understand it. It's like the annoying ticking sound of a large clock. Just ticking the question eating away at ones soul. Why tell me why...?"
———Kakashi's POV———
She's lost it completely lost it. Why is she like this? What was it that made my injury and almost death her breaking point? What could have been so bad in her life? I want to ask her but I'm afraid of making things worse.
However I am lucky I got here in time she would have died if she hit the ground.
"Y/n. I swear I won't leave you because you're my friend." I tell her.
She looks up at me her eyes glistening with tears. I set her down and she starts to sob I hug her bringing her closer to my chest.
She spits out apologies and I'm glad you're okay.
———back to y/n POV———
As I cried into his chest and apologized repetitively I pulled away. Looking at him with a sad look.
"I don't know what it is but around you I always show emotions. I can be myself no matter what because you understand..." I cry out.
Kakashi just looks at me and shakes his head.
"I may have read your files but there is so much I don't know about you." He responds.
"I would like to say I understand but I don't because you won't tell me..." he says I look up at him.
I sigh and gesture for him to follow me inside I grabbed two cups and grabbed a bottle of Sake. I poured him and myself one cup.
"I'm Danzo's daughter..." I start.
