I'm okay, I promise.
Its just that sometimes im sad.
Or i feel like nobody cares.
Maybe its sitting in a room full of people and feeling like im not actually there.
Sometimes after spending the day with my friends laughing and talking i go back to my dorm and sit by myself and feel alone.
I occasionally feel like im not good enough for anyone.
And i feel like if i disappeared nobody would notice or maybe they would be grateful im gone.
Sometimes they all say im important but i don't feel that way.
I hide my emotions and pretend im happy just so my friends don't have to deal with me.
Because i know they say they are here if i want to talk but if i were to talk i would feel like im annoying them and that im just an inconvenience.
They love me.
I love them.
But maybe that's not enough.
Maybe it will never be enough.
Maybe their love only extended my existence by a short few months.
Or even maybe a year or two.
But eventually time will run out.
And their love wont be enough to keep me here anymore.
Because no matter what they say or do i will still feel like a disappointment and a fuck up.
But to them i smile.
And laugh.
And pretend to be alright.
Because im okay.
I promise.
