Someday.
That's all I hope for.
That someday will be soon.
Because someday everything will be okay.
Someday I won't feel the pain of you being gone.
Someday my mother won't cry herself to sleep.
Someday my thoughts won't randomly find you and all of a sudden stop.
Someday I will find a picture of us and won't cry.
Someday my brothers won't fight about who misses you more.
Someday I won't regret how the last time I saw you went.
Someday we will stop talking about how the hospital fucked up.
Someday the dog you once loved, will stop waiting by the door for you to come home.
Someday when I say your name, I won't die on the inside.
Someday mother won't have to hug your pillow to be able to sleep.
Someday my older brother will realize it's not his fault.
Someday I will realize the impact of you being gone.
Someday the people I love will look at me and not see the pain I feel inside everyday.
Someday I won't have to cry on my friends shoulders Everytime I think about you too long.
Someday during the holidays the entire family won't be horribly sad.
Maybe someday when I think of you I will think of the happy memories instead of the last few times I saw you.
And maybe, just maybe
Someday I will understand why you left my life so soon.
But until my someday
We will continue hurting.
Because you are
Mom's husband
Father to seven.
You are his best friend
Their son
Brother to others
Uncle to many
You are a grandfather to a child not yet born.
So maybe SOMEDAY.
