The way I felt about you was ridiculous
My heart pounded every time I used to see you
I would get so excited just hearing your name
The thought of you brought a smile to my face
You were my everything
My first love
The first person I have ever felt a real connection with
The first person I ever wanted to give my body too
You were my everything
I loved you as hard as I could
That's what broke me
Because when we ended
I became the worst version of myself
I couldn't eat
I couldn't leave my house without crying
I lost a lot of weight
I threw up everytime I heard your name
Or every time I saw you
Because all the memories of the beginning kept popping up in my mind
Every kiss we shared
Every time we had sex..
Just everything
I always wish I would of never fell in love at such a young age
I wish to feel this way again about someone
But for the right person
