*Flashback ends*
"I hate it when you are quiet." Jaebum said and I realized I forgot the fact that I was in his car, with him, having stupid flashbacks while I stared out of the window.
"I'm sorry." I mumbled as I looked at him.
He didn't look at me.
"I would lie if I say I didn't miss you." He still didn't look at me but stared at the road.
I didn't want to hear anything about us.
Specially not such statements.
Not after what he did to me.
"You shouldn't be saying that." I was rude.
"I'd lie. But I don't want to lie anymore. Not to you." He did look at me with his sixth sense.
I didn't reply because I didn't want to have this conversation.
Even if I loved him, I didn't want him back because I was done. I can't have such a relationship where he keeps changing himself towards me. Only me.
Love? The last conversation we had, he said that he didn't believe in love. And I realized he was just playing with me all the damn time.
He pulled over to a very familiar place. A beautiful park that we discovered the last time he came to my house in LA.
He got out of the car and stopped at the view.
The dim-lights all around. It was peaceful, something that Jaebum adores. Peace.
I got down closing the door hard behind me.
"I want to go back." I said as his perfect back echoed my own voice.
He didn't look back at me. He stayed there and I didn't move either.
"I can't let you go." He turned to face me but the lights behind him shined more, darkening his face. I couldn't read it.
Why was he doing this?
"I'm tired." he said. "I tried to get over but I missed you more and more." I heard him sigh.
"I'm sorry for letting this happen." he walked closer to me. "Don't deny we weren't happy together. Are we happy apart?"
My eyes were burning trying to control the tears.
Nothing melted me. He did not. His words did not matter. He had hurt me. And atleast I survived for the first time but I was sure if it happened again I wouldn't be able to digest.
"I thought you were the one who said you were better without me." I gulped my saliva.
Repeating his words sucked out my blood and my heart ached.
"I don't remember words I don't mean even abit." He blocked the lights behind him and now I could see his face.
His eyes were watery. And his jaw was tight.
"So is Jackson having a good time pass with my friend back there until you sort out things here?" I said as I ran my hand through my soft hair.
I was worried about Luce.
"No. Jackson didn't know you were Luce's friend until he found a photo of you two together today." Jaebum said.
"Yugyeom was your blind date otherwise." he continued and smirked.
Yugyeom would have been a perfect blind date. Jaebum sucks.
"What are you doing in LA?" I walked a step closer to him.
He paused and looked away.
"Searching for you." He looked back at me. "You changed your address, your phone number and you didn't even tell it to Min Ji." he stopped and let out a huge sigh. "But finally I have you in front of me."
I pursued my lips trying to digest all my surroundings.
"Why?" I wanted to know.
"Why now?" I wanted him to explain.
"Why do you have to come back?" I pierced my eyes through his.
He didn't look away.
"Because I love you Rose Tuan." His eyes melted my warmth that I had for him.
But I knew he was not genuine. He never was.
I love you too Im Jaebum. But I won't let this get more. Never.
"I want you to drop me home. Right now." My voice was terribly broken.
He walked back towards the car and I followed him.
Never happening again. This was the last time I was going to see him. Not anymore.
