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Chapter 4 - Friendship

I was so engrossed in my book that I was completely unaware of Jungkook creeping up on me from behind the couch.

"Boo!" He screamed, making me jump and lose my page in the book. I yelled at him, "Jungkook! Look at what you did, you just made me lose my page!" I crossed my arms together and gave him an angry stare. Jungkook giggled, apparently pleased that he had gotten a good reaction out of me.

He hopped onto the couch beside me and turned on the television. "What do you like to watch, Y/N? It's time to take a break from that book and spend some quality time with your favorite member of BTS!" He said, and I rolled my eyes at him.

I responded with, "Anything is fine, and you are not my favorite, I have no favorite, you doofus." Jungkook didn't seem convinced, he giggled, "Haha, yes I am, doofus!"

We both settled on a movie with a cliche forbidden love plot.

"I'll grab the popcorn!" Exclaimed Jungkook, rushing off towards the kitchen to microwave the snack.

Once we both settled in and got comfortable, we began the movie. The rest of the boys were somewhere else doing other things to occupy their time with. I can't lie to myself, but I am enjoying this. Not because of the movie, but because I'm spending this moment with Jungkook, I thought to myself, inching myself a little closer towards him. Jungkook wrapped his arm around me, and I leaned my head on his shoulder.

My eyelids began to droop, and I fell asleep before we could finish watching the movie.

I was awoken by the sounds of the other members' laughter in the morning. I opened my eyes and they were all crowding around Jungkook and me on the couch.

"Looks like there's a couple here," joked Jimin, and I scooched to the other side of the couch, as far from Jungkook as possible.

I explained, "I have no feelings for him and he doesn't have any feelings for me, and we're not a couple. Isn't that right, Jungkook?" He wasn't hesitant with his response. "No, Y/N, I disagree. I think we'd make a great couple!"

I have no idea how I'm supposed to react to this.

Does he really feel that way about us?

I think I do too..

I needed to clear my head, so I asked to be excused. I went outside to the apartment balcony and thought about what just happened.

It was a beautiful Saturday morning, the sun hadn't completely risen yet and stratus clouds were drenched in yellows and oranges. The birds were chirping their morning songs and I felt the wind blow across my face. Looking down, I saw the busy streets of Kyoto, Japan. Pedestrians walked along the sidewalks, cars and taxis drove on the asphalt roads, and shops began to open for their customers.

Then Jungkook came to join me.

I sighed, but before he could let me speak, he told me, "I'm sorry if what I said made you uncomfortable, and it's okay if you don't feel the same way about me. I just wanted to get it off my che-"

I leaned in and kissed him on the lips. Yes, I loved him, but I had some bad news to deliver too.

"I do love you, Jungkook. But you know this won't work. If we date and your fanbase finds out, I'll be sent death threats, and so will you. They might even go as far as track our location and wait outside of our apartment to harm us."

He was silent for a moment as if he hadn't considered this already. Then he responded with, "Y/N, you know we're meant to be, admit it. Let's not let this get in the way of our relationship. It can be kept a secret, we can be happy, they can be happy, everyone wins." He came forward to give me a kiss but I pulled away.

I told him, "I'm still worried, Jungkook. I want to do this, but is it the right thing when it comes to our safety?"

He assured me, "We'll be fine, can't you trust me, Y/N? I'll make sure you're always safe, they can't do anything to make me stop loving you." This time, I let him give me a kiss on the cheek.

I gave Jungkook a small nod, "Okay, let's just be careful in public, alright? I don't want to take any risks."

"Agreed," He answered, leading me back inside.