My Cruel Truth

Wihsper things to me

(Now playing//Not about Angels~ Birdy)

As I sat on my legs on the ground and put flowers down on the casket. I gently hug the casket and kiss the top. Repeating the words 'I love you mommy'. Memories come to me again and again and again. I only remember the times she was getting hit and her in the hospital.

I look behind me seeing my little brothers grave. Just knowing I have my dad but he doesn't even care about me hurts deep down inside.
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I look around once again seeing my fathers casket on the floor this time. Looking behind me seeing my mothers and little brothers grave. It all just hits me in the face and brings tears to me. I didn't get to say my last words to any of them. Should I just take my own life as well? I thought as I shaded tears. How will I get through this?

It was dark outside and I still had on my black outfit coming back from the cemetery with nothing but a flower in my hand. Memories of the only people I had in my life came to me. Knowing their all gone hurts even more.
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                   /Monday/ 5:45/
I woke up to the sound of nothing. My eyes were puffy from all the crying last night. My head is Spinning but I can't stop it. Everything hurts.

I get up weakly getting ready for school. I put your uniform and shoes on. I went to brush my teeth and do my hair. Then I walk to school already ready to get the day over with.

As soon as I walked through the gates I  heard everyone talk about my puffy red eyes as always I ignored them and go straight to my classes. Everyone came running in because class was about to start. I sit all they way in the back in all my classes so no one can bother me.

I look out the window missing my family. I felt eyes glued on me so I turned and saw everyone staring at me and the teachers arms were crossed.

"Hum?" -I hummed not knowing what's happening-
"I asked you a question Ms.Mi-So" -the teacher said with a annoyed response-
"What was the question again?"
"If you aren't going to pay attention why did you come to school? If I call your parents so you think they will be okay with this" -the teacher said getting closer to me-
"W-W-W-Well n-n-no" -I stuttered feeling sad all over again-
"W-W-What M-M-M-Ms, SPEAK RIGHT"
-the teacher yelled and minced me; all that could be heard were the kids laughing-

I run out the class into the bathroom shedding tears not caring who was around me. I heard someone call out to me.
"HEY....HEY....WHATS WrONG?" -a males voice repeated, getting closer-
I didn't answer and stayed inside the bathroom after 10 minuets of whipping tears away I finally come out and there's a boy outside the restrooms waiting on someone.

As I walked past him he grabs my hand and asks me...
"Why were you crying?"
"Who are you?...."-I said kinda frightened-
"OH! I'm Park JiHoon! But that doesn't matter why were you crying?" -He said going from happy to sad and making a pout-
"I'm sorry but I don't want to tell you...and can you please let go of my wrist I need to go" -I said barely speaking up-
"Okay, if you ever need anything I'm in class A4 and remember Park Jihoon! Okay? OOoOKAY!...See you later!!"

I went straight through the doors going back home.

As I walked on the sidewalk I hear a car and loud music then someone's scream.
"Stop stop, stop hyung! WAIT!"-a familiar voice yells out from the car-
"Why?" -another manly voice says-
"HEY!HEY!HEY!HEYY~!" -the guy yells out from the windows
"That's the girl I was talking about~!!!"