Appa Jeonghan • jeongcheol

02

Jeonghan

Every time in my mind,
I'm telling myself
Should I be?
Who will be?
The man who'll hold your hand

Luha, tuloy tuloy na pumapatak sa mukha ni Seungcheol. Kakatapos niya mamatayan ng girlfriend.Kaya ito siya nagsusulat ng kanta.

He is none other than scoups,ang dakilang manunulat ng rap sa kanilang bansa. Tago ang personalidad ni Seungcheol.Hindi siya matatawag na well known artist kumbaga.

He is just living his life not to the fullest when his girlfriend died yesterday due to her illness.Seungcheol is so desperate to see her again, to kiss her again, and to love her again.

Sobrang sakit sa isang Seungcheol na magmahal kasi isa siyang cold na tao. He tried loving someone pero laging may balakid.

Whenever I close my eyes
I can see your lovely smile
And I open it again
And then I see the midnight sky

Midnight sky, diyan sila nagkakilala ng kaniyang nobya. Knowing na mahilig magtravel ang dalawa, napunta sila sa isang lugar na tago.Gabing puno ng saya ang kanilang naramdaman. Nakita ni Seungcheol ang ngiti ng kaniyang nobya. Ngiting hindi mapapantayan ng sinuman.

Wishing that I'll be
The man that'll touch and see
I'll give my love that can't explain
We will be running in the rain
And I will hold your hand
Hold my hand
Hmmmm
Hmmmm

Sumasabay na ang luha at braskong boses ni seungcheol sa kanta. Bawat linya ay tagos sa puso.Bawat salita ay nakakahilo.Yung mapapaiyak ka nalang ng walang dahilan. As if nung umulan nun. Magkahawak ang dalawa. Di mapigilan ang sarili kundi yakapin at halikan ang isat isa. Hindi mabalot ng kalungkutan ang dalawa. Saya lang ang nabgingibabaw.

Too much pain
Can heal a thousand scars
Feeling alone
So I'm talking to the stars

Ng biglang natumba ang kaniyang nobya. Nawalan ng malay kasabay ng padyak ni seungcheol papunta sa ambulansya, ay kasabay rin ng tibok ng puso, mabilis papunta sa napapagod hangat wala na.
He can't, we all know.Seungcheol is brave.But when it comes to love he can cry. He felt to much pain as he ever wonder, he already has hope. He already has.

Whenever I close my eyes
I can see your lovely smile
And I open it again
And then I see the midnight sky

He finally found his hope. His dream,everytime he close his eyes, he always saw the girl's face with an endless smile, a lovely smile.

Wishing that I'll be
The man that'll touch and see
I'll give my love that can't explain
We will be running in the rain

And again,he can't explain the love he found in his dream.Maybe it is just a dream, an endless dream of the woman she loved. Someday, that dream will come true. They will be running in the rain. He promised.

And i will hold your hand
Hold my hand
Hold my hand
Hold my hand
I will hold your hand

He finally get up in that dream that he lives in. He hugged him self as he says the statement,

Soon i will hold your hand in the mudnight sky.

-Yoon Jeonghan

------------------------------------------------------

"Omooo! Freny ganda neto! "

I smiled.Binasa kasi ni Seokmin yung manuscript ko.

"Sino naman si Seumgcheol, new inspiration?,at bakit mo naman sinama yung famous star na si scoups?"

I smiled again at inassure na wala lang si Seungcheol nor Scoups.

Hmm? Kung ako tatanungin,di ko rin alam kung bakit ko sila sinama sa manuscript ko. Napakaimportante ng manuscripts sa buhay ko dahil malaki ang binabayad saakin,this is my job at ito lang ang paraan para ma-express ko yung emotions ko. And Seungcheol,baka may reason,maybe soon to be friends probably.

Ilang weeks narin akong di nakakasulat ng manuscripts at iba pang uri ng literature.Journalist ako dito sa pledis entertainment.Maybe hindi sa pagmamayabang, kasama ako sa top 10 board passer ng board exams kaya nakuha ako dito sa medyo magandang entertainment.

Minsan naghohosting rin ako sa mga events. Kaya baka binabati ako pag dumadaan ako bg hallway. Actually singer rin ako pero di ko masyadong focus yun.Si bumzu kasi nagtutulak saaking kumanta when i dont want naman. Gusto kong lumayo sa media.

And scoups, sikat siya at dito siya nangaling sa pledis.Siguro baka magkamukha sila ni Seungcheol and definitely sa ugali rin.

Pinasa ko na toh sa grammar checker ko na si joshua.

Nung nacheck na niya, i immediately pass this to our boss. As expected natuwa siya sa kakalabasan.
*le flips mah long hair*

De jok.

"Jeonghan,caf tayo!"

"geh"

Sinundan ko si Seokmin sa cafeteria. Sinabi ko yung ioorder ko para isahan nalang.

Umupo na ako sa vaccant na upuan. Tatlo ito. Lalang skl.

Yumuko muna ako dahil napagod ang utak ko sa mga ideas na niluwa nito.

"Henlooo!"

Nagising ako ng wala sa oras dahil may unggoy na gumisng sa harapan ko.

"Oh im sorry i didn't mean to do th--"

"Shh, can you pls stop saying sorry when you not meant to do that?!"galit kong sabi.

Yumuko nalang siya.

"Hmm, by the way,bakit ka nandidito?"i ask.

"Bakit hindi ka nagtetext?"he ask.

I raised my left eyebrow.

"Diba dapat ikaw ang tatanungin ko niyan?"

"So gusto mo rin pala!"he smirks.

"Honestly, i like you"he added that caught me off guard.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

"Then what did you like about m--?"

"Cuz ur beautiful,single,a lady of course and v-virgin without a son nor daughter?"

Sa lahat ng sinabi niya, wala saakin. So hindi niya papala alam na im a male at may anak, good for him.
I will just keep it a secret, because it his to know.

"jeonghan!"

Nilingon ko ang tumawag saakin,its seokmin.I bid my goodbye to seungcheol,knowing na tinakeout nalang ni Seokmin ang mga pagkain.

"Wait!"seungcheol shouts.

I hummed in response.

"Keep safe, i love you!"

I smiled slightly as i run forward to seokmin who's in wait for me.

What the Seungcheol--some one likes me that didint know na lalaki ako at may anak.. Anak ng--

P-paano kung nalaman niya na lalaki ako at may anak? Mamahalin niya pa kaya ako? Oh well jeonghan,hindi mo panaman gusto,siya palang or mahal mo na?

Tumahimik ka nga jeonghan!