Best Friends

Chapter 8

Jimin pov

I froze I didn't know what I was doing I just felt stupid. I don't like fast relationships but here I am. I just feel like I know her so well, I can literally look up anything I want to  know about her and it would more than likely be on the internet.

I shouldn't do this what was I thinking. This is literally Jungkooks best friend I couldn't do this to him. He deserves more respect than this.

I stared at her for a minute unable to move one kiss that's all I want but I can't. If I did it could ruin both of our carriers. I should just take her home.

After a completely silent car ride I finally reached her apartment. Before I could even completely start the car y/n was already running to the front of the hotel. Damn she must already know what I'm thinking. She knows we can't be together.

I drove back to the dorm. I was less excited to see that the van was already back. That ment the rest of BTS was in the dorm. I slowly got out of my car and walked inside. Just like I expected they asked were I took y/n but, I just ignored them I wasn't in the mood.

Now I know why y/n was in such a bad mood. After all this time she found out that we couldn't be. I completely wasted her time. Wasted me. Wasted everything for something I wanted so bad but couldn't have.

Why can't I just be normal? Why do I habe to be an idol? Why do I have to alive?

There's no point in living without her. But in the end she'll be better off without me. Won't she? But I won't be better off without her but, I must stay strong for BTS, for ARMY, and excspeciually for her.

I felt a tear run down my face but I quickly wiped it away hoping no one saw. I realized I was still standing in the door way so I quickly walked to my room.

Why do I have to share a room with Hobi Hyung? I should've just said yes when I had the chance to have my own room. I just want to be alone. Actually I want to ne dead. Yes death sounds great. Even better I hope someone kills me in my sleep.

But what about BTS? They won't take that well. What about ARMY's? How would they deal with the death of their idols? I guess we would have to find out.

I layed in bed and waited for Hobi Hyung to come in but he never did. Before I knew it I fell asleep dreaming of rain.