I Want You | A Taekook AU

Chapter 9

"You look a hundred times better when you're wrapped up in my arms"

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"W-what is it?" He questioned silently hoping it wouldn't be anything about them, in particular never speaking again.

Jeongguk gulped nervously. This is the first and only person he would tell this. Just thinking about it made him feel like collapsing and crying. He knew he was going to have to tell it someday.

"W-well, I have something I've been suffering from, which I'm sure you know what it is, for a long time now. I-I have something called Depression," he uttered. "I've been medically diagnosed with it since I was seventeen and have been taking medication since."

"Can I ask what caused it?" Taehyung asked hesitantly(carefully his eyes, which were already swollen, were already tearing up from what was about to come.

"Of course, after all, you told me all of your secrets. You strong by the way, do you know that?"

Taehyung put a sincere smile on his face soon after Jeongguk said those words. He was in awe of how the other could be so selfless and kind at this moment.

"A-anyway, as I was saying."

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"I remember that day as clear as day. My whole life turned upside down. At first, it was your usual Thursday: Students coming back home after long and exhausting hours at school, shops open and carrying on with their business, cafes serving people. You know the drill.

I was at home, just thinking about how I should talk to my mom about the argument that happened this morning. I remember the harsh words I said towards her. "I wish you would disappear" "Leave me alone" "You don't understand me". I wish I wouldn't have said them.

I turned on the news on the Television and heard something about a murderer on the loose around my area. I didn't think much of it then. I wish I did now.

A couple of hours later, I heard panicked knocks on my door. I was confused at first, but as soon as my mothers distressed voice, I ran towards the door like there was no tomorrow. All I cared about was my mother. She was the only thing I had.

As soon as I opened the door, there she was, covering a part of her stomach with a handkerchief. Her top covered in blood, becoming soaked in it more and more as the seconds went by. She stumbled in, weak in her legs. She looked as if her life was going through her eyes. As if she couldn't see anything else but some kind of vision.

Me being the stupid self I am, I asked her if she was okay. Of course, she wasn't. Blood was oozing out of her body for Christ's sake. She looked at me, like a living corpse, smiling.

"I love you"

And then she collapsed on the floor. Face lost all colour and emotion. All I could do is stare at her. I held the handkerchief in my hand, my face being the palest it has ever been. Tears welled up in my eyes like never before. I screamed out the pain coming from my heart. Tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face. Everything I ever had had now disappeared before my very own eyes.

This is it.

All is gone.

I outstretched to reach her. To feel her warmth again. To see that this is all a nightmare. That I would just wake up in my bed, and hear her singing from downstairs and dance as she cooks breakfast. To just walk towards her and see her smile. To hug her and be able to tell her I love her with all my heart.

But she was cold."

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Taehyung was looking at Jeongguk with both sadness and sincerity. He wouldn't have known something like this would've happened to such a caring boy. Taehyung felt as if he needed to protect the boy from everything and anything.

Jeongguk still seemed lost in his thoughts. However, Taehyung had this tempting urge to just kiss the boy there and then. It felt like the right thing to do at that time.

So he went for it.

He kissed Jeongguk on his lips, full of emotion, causing Jeongguk to snap from his thoughts. The boy seemed flustered at the sudden action from Taehyung. Butterflies stirred up in the pit of his stomach, and it made him forget all his negative thoughts. All he focused on his how Taehyung's lips collided with his. It felt just right.

Taehyung pulled away after some time, looking at blushing Jeongguk full of love and sweetness in his eyes.

"Be my boyfriend"