"You sure you're not hungry Rach?" Clair ask knocking my door.
"I'm fine" It'd been 4 days since my dad's funeral and I locked myself in my room. I didn't went to school and I was planning to came back on Monday. I wasn't actually in grief, yes I love my dad, yes my dad loves me, yes he was loving and caring not like my mom, yes I told him I love him, yes he take cares of me when I'm small, but it felt like nothing changed, he wasn't at home like always, he wasn't calling me like usual, he wasn't cooking for my meals so it's like nothing change only the fact that I wasn't going to see his face ever again.
"You sure? You haven't eat for days"
"I'm sure, I got some snacks on my mini fridge and it's only 4 days not like a month" My room has a mini fridge, which filled with snacks and lots of ice creams. My room also has it's own bathroom so I didn't have to share but if I have to, who would share it with me? No one's here anyway. I spend my times looking at my childhood memories and eating ice cream. I reached my photo album which is labeled 'Preschool' I don't remember much at preschool not even my friends' names. I remember that I have a really close friend which is a boy and we spend a lot of times but I didn't remember his face and name.
Opening the cover, the first picture is the picture when I was a toddler and I guess it was my first day of preschool. I was standing in front of my class's door and I looked like I've seen a ghost. Unluckily, I couldn't remember a thing so I remembered that I cried not wanting to go to school. I was hugging my back pack like my life depends on it, it was after all my favourite backpack. It was the exact backpack like the one Dora uses, the purple one with eyes and stuff.
I flipped the page seeing the second picture, I was in a car holding my dora backpack and I had a huge grin but my eyes were a little puffy from crying. I remembered my bestfriend gave me a cookie and ask me not to cry so I think that's why I'm grinning.
The third picture was a picture of me at the beach, I was using a hot pink bathing suit and I had sand in my hair. I was holding a bucket filled with water.
The fourth picture was a picture of me and a boy with black hair. I think that boy was my childhood bestfriend but I couldn't see his face because I was splashing water on him. I smiled looking at this picture, I looked really happy back then.
The fifth picture was me and the boy, the boy was pretty cute with his hazel eyes that reminds me of Luke. Can it be Luke? No it can't be. Rumours said that Luke was an exchange student from somewhere so he couldn't be the boy in the picture. But could it be? There's no way he could be, he was avoiding me and if the boy wad him. I wondered if Kayson could make him hang with us but I doubt that because he won't even hang out with me, the most popular, beautiful girl in the whole school
I was still mad at Luke because he just walk away from me, not wanting to talk about Luke, I flipped the page and it's the picture of my 5th birthday. I was wearing a pretty pink dress with a tiara. In front of me was a big barbie cake, which is also pink. I wasn't smiling that time and I remember perfectly why, it was my first birthday without my parents. It was the day I realise that I'll be fine without my parents. Not wanting to think about them, I flipped again.
The next picture was me at the hospital, damn why is it filled with sad things. I was lying on the bed, with flowers, cards even teddy bears on the table. I was holding a pink teddy bear which is pretty cute but the fact that it's pink, is probably why it's in the dumpster now. You see, as a kid, I liked pink, no, I loved pink. Everything was pink and when I turned 12, I started to hate pink and I repaint my room sky blue, but it was still dull so I cut up some letters and stick them on the wall to make a quote. I also put some chrismas lights that looked like stars when the light's off. I love the stars, if I'm upset, I will bring a pillow to the rooftop and feel asleep under the stars. It was so calming and peaceful. I wanted to be like a star, they're small but could light up the whole sky.
