Rebirth

Day 763

Its been a while since I've written in this thing good news is I've survived over 2 years in this Hell. I think I'm about 18 now if I'm not mistaken. I've upgraded alot of stuff. I built wooden pillars that I stuck along the rollout fence to make it more sturdy, I added a crank that moves a slab of concrete that covers up the grave. My plant makes so much clean oxygen that I don't even feel the radiation down here. It's crazy really I've almost found some semblences of normal. My backpack broke a few weeks back rest in peace Packy never gonna forget you, pour one out for the fallen homie you know how it goes, but I guess thats just the way she goes, ever since I've been carrying my shit in my brothers old bag. Lets see anything else guess I have to catch up on alot so much has changed since the 5th nuke. Yeah I know what you're thinking who the fuck decided to nuke us five times! Well thanks to a raid that went really well in New York I now know that information. Turns out somehow America got caught up in some war where the original nuke was sent from England. I know its not much but hey give me a break my life legit just stopped one day and I just sort of had to roll with it I lost my shit when I found that out me and this orange 9 inch bunny peep plushy I found had a party with this kind of knowledge. Look his  name is Davie just let me live ok? Why am I explaining myself everyones dead no one reads this but me, am I just yelling at myself. It was a good party too. I made homemade bread and tomato sauce. I got some banners from party city seriously you should have been there it was, wow it was.
Really boring, I feel like I'm finally set for the long hall, I make my own food, I've got over a years and a halfs worth of water and if that runs out I  have a water distilation system that turns rain water into drinkable water using a series of complex filters similar to a water purifier but a little more complex because it cleans itself by using good bacteria to eat away at the bad kind Then filters out the rest with holes small enough to catch micro organisms. I found all the miltary rations. As long as a nuke isn't dropped in Hawthorne my base should hold up just fine. I found a fucking old mattress that I can sleep on and I made a real gas mask out of my grandfathers old welding mask. I even made my own oxygen tanks. I'm alive, but I've never felt more dead in my life. I already dug my own grave sometimes I wonder to myself if its time to just crawl inside it and die, but tonights a good night finally found my journal so I guess I'll leave the decsion to kill myself or not for tomorrow anyways it's getting dark. Time to hit the hay. Hopefully tomorrow something interesting happens at this point I would seriously take anything.