Confusing Love

Ch 12

Laura's POV

Its been like a month since me and oli are dating and i've invited kitty and harry for a dinner party, cause u know they got engaged and guess what? well my friends just decided to date my bullies friends, Hallie with Niall and Anna with Louis..... Yeah i know, what can i do? they like each other..... Lou and Anna are coming too....

"they are here babe" oli says as he raps his arms around my waist pushing me to the door.

"OK...." i say as he slips his hand in mine and we walk to the door and i open it.

"Hey Lars!" kitty shouts, hugging me

"hi, kitty....harry,Louis" i say giving a short nod at harry, Louis and then give a hug to Anna.

"come in guys" i say as they come and sit on the sofa's

"i'll just come" i say, i am not myself lately, too tired of everything and i don't eat anything like anything at all. Olly helps me a lot, he cares for me but i am just not hungry and because of that my business is getting effective....This all happened after what i saw on Oliver and i's 6th date. Zayn is the same, he doesn't care about anyone's feelings, he is like a drink retarded man. Doesn't speak or anything, i don't know but still i wanna see him, i don't know whats wrong with him like the way he looks at me...i don't know! i am always forcing myself to think that i love him, while the truth is that i don't have any feelings for Oliver, I accepted his proposal because somehow i wanted to forget Zayn. In these past few days when ever Zayn meets me, he tries to apologies but whenever i want him to explain someone comes up.

"Ummmm.....Debby?" harry says coming in the kitchen as i turn around, The boys somehow got to know why oli punched zayn.....

"yeah?" i say politely

"the think is......i just....ummm.....u know" he mumbles

"just say it harry"

"i-ummm...the boys were going for a interview thingy and some fans got after them...so niall just called me that the nearest hose is yours so they have to come here to hide, likeifudontmind!" he says the end part quickly

"Sure" i say

"umm..Zayn will also come.." he says as my eyes go wide, like i a not that angry at him but what he did to me but then again looking at his position.........i kind of forgive him...what can i do he is in trouble

"its ok they r in trouble" i mumble getting the salad

"ok..." he says as the bell rungs

"i'll get it" he says and walks away.

i pick the salad and walk in the dinning room where all of them are sitting, I take a seat next to my boyfriend, ducking my hair down so i cant see zayn. He is seated right in front of me......this is the 175383 way of me and zayn meeting! like something just has to make us see each other, i wonder how they dont know my real name yet, Oli is continuously glaring at Zayn

"uhm" lou clears his throughout breaking the silence. 

"lets eat?" he says as everyone nods and starts eating little chatter around me. Zayn is staring at me and cause of that i dont know but my eyes dare to look at him....OMG! what has he done to himself? as i look at him my eyes go wide, he hasn't styled his hair, he has blood shot eyes like he hasnt slept for like months and he has grew a beard and he looks like a total mess. I look him in his eyes, his once glowy sparkling brown eyes that are now dark, more like black and tired. My heart picks up as he looks at me staring at him and i see a little glim of light in his eyes. I have a feeling he is like this cause of me? omg i feel like i have drowned him, i-omg, I really wanna cry right now, i know he bullied me but at the end he stoped that was because he realized what he did to me.....he helped me?