What Hurts The Most (Jemily)

Chapter 4

"What's your decision?" Derek asked after Emily didn't answer to the first one. She just figited her fingers and looked down at the floor. "Emily, I'm not asking again."

"I can't try and win her over. I can't force her to like me. If she doesn't like me, then I just have to accept that. I just want her to be happy, and if it's with him, then so be it." Emily answered.

"This is your final decision?" Derek asked to be sure. Emily nodded her head. "Hey, it's okay. I will respect your decision, though sometimes you are too nice." Derek said. That made Emily chuckle a little bit.

1 year later

"I want that cop who I talked to earlier." the guy said. He was referring to Will.

"Absolutely not." J said as she was in a little argument, Will took matters into his own hand and walked towards the bank with no vest on. JJ didn't realize until he was past the cars. "What? Will, Will! Let me go. Will!" JJ tried to get out of the grip of Derek and Emily to run towards her kids' father, but they had a good hold of her. They heard two gunshots, and JJ's heart instantly shattered. The guy had a paramedic sent in, and after about five minutes, the bank blew up. After realizing that Emily wasn't there, they ran in and tried to find her, although JJ's mind was only focused on Will.

As they were searching through the building for Emily and Will, JJ came across Emily with an old couple. "You okay?" JJ asked.

"Yeah. They will need some help though." Emily said. Derek walked up to Emily and stayed with her while JJ looked for Will.

"He's gone." JJ said to the team as she ran back outside.

"We need to think about this. Why did they choose Will to stay alive? They could have easily just let him die just like the others." Derek said. After thinking for a little bit, JJ said,

"That bitch." She ran to a vehicle and drove quickly to her house. She ran inside and searched the house before she was kicked. She turned around and started to fight the girl that was the "Queen" of the group. Of course, after they fought for awhile, JJ finally won. She arrested her and took her out to the police car that got there a little after she did. When the girl was in the car, she ran back inside and hugged Henry and rocked back and forth.

Meanwhile with Emily and the rest of the team, they were where Will was. Emily ran up to him and tried to figure out the bomb that was attached to him. "Can you try and hurry up?" Will asked.

"I'm trying. Just, give me a minute." Emily said frantically.

"Well that's about all you have." Will said, looking down at the timer. Emily tried a couple of four letter words, but both of them weren't the right one. "Izzy. Her name was Izzy." Will told her. Emily spelled out Izzy, and the timer stopped, and both of them were relieved, but that only lasted a second before a new bomb was started.

"Oh my god." Emily said. This had four different wires, but she only had 30 seconds before it went off. She thought about it and cut the color of wire that was the only one that wasn't a color of Chad's flag. She cut it close considering there was only a second left, but both of them were relieved that it was all over.

"How did you know which color to cut?" Will asked.

"It was the only color that wasn't part of Chad's flag." Emily answered. They got up and went outside. JJ ran up to Will and kissed him passionately. Emily could feel her heart break as she looked away from the two and walked over to Derek. She gave him that look, and he immediately knew what was up. He took her to where no one could see them. He hugged her, and she started to cry.

"I know baby girl. I know." he said.

"No, you don't know. Everyday for the past year I hoped that I would get over her, but everyday that I see her, I fall for her even more. Everyday she gets even more beautiful, and I get even further from getting over her. It hurts more everytime I see her with Will because I wish it were me instead of him. But I know that she loves him, so I don't want to do anything to jeapordize that. That's why I saved him from being blown up. I know she would've fallen into deep depression if he would've let him die. I would hate to have seen her like that. If I didn't save him and had the opportunity, she would've hated me. I didn't want that to happen, so that's why I saved him." Emily told him.

"You're right. But, you had a choice." Derek told her.

"I know, but I can't like anyone else. I can't even pretend to like someone else." Emily said.

"This why I tell you that I can be the person you talk to. Because I know you won't talk to anyone." he said as he let her cry on his shoulder. When they got back to the cars, JJ walked up to Emily and hugged her.

"Thank you for saving him." she said.

"No problem." Emily said, and they went to their cars. JJ couldn't help but think about Emily and how it looked like she was crying. JJ wanted to know why, but Emily doesn't really talk to her anymore. She's always talking to Derek, and she's wondering if something is going on between them.

3 years later

"Where did she go? She was just here!" Derek said as he looked behind him. They had gotten a case, and Emily was acting a little weird. Derek and Rossi went back to her apartment and snooped around. Derek discovered the rings she put in the toilet. Eventually they went back to the BAU. "I found these in her toilet." Derek said, holding up the three rings on a chain to make a necklace.

"They're Gaelic. They symbolize love, loyalty, and friendship." Rossi said.

"Well, I've brought in help from the state department." Hotch said.

"Who?" Garcia said.

"Her." Hotch replied. Everyone looked behind them towards the door and saw JJ.

"Lets get to work." JJ said.

A/N

Hey guys! I know this isn't exactly how it goes, but I don't want to copy the show exactly. Only one chapter left! I hope you like it!