{Phan} A camp AU

Authors note(Kinda)

So.....Hey this is a not from a friend of mine talking about what its like loosing someone from cancer. Just read it trust me you will see a lot from a new perspective.

Hello! So on here I go by the name Cj you can find me @samthemoose05. This can hit kind of close for some people but if you lost someone to cancer or anyway like I did I 100% encourage you to read this.  But if you didn't read this anyways and you can see this in a new perspective and make things much clearer.

June 17th a certain year this amazing guy known as Casey passed away from cancer.  While he was in Iraq he was in an explosion the killed his best friends and multiple others.  He was exposed to radiation that gave him this illness and such a rare form he wasn't given a prognosis.  

prog·no·sispräɡˈnōsəs/nounthe likely course of a disease or ailment."the disease has a poor prognosis"a forecast of the likely course of a disease or ailment."it is very difficult to make an accurate prognosis"a forecast of the likely outcome of a situation."gloomy prognoses about overpopulation"synonyms:forecast, prediction, prognostication, prophecy, divination, augury"it is difficult to make an accurate prognosis"

I was 4 at the time.  Almost every single day I miss him so much sometimes it's to the point I won't get out of bed other times it causes me to cry so much I can't talk for days afterwords and my eyes stay red and puffy for sometimes a week afterwords(Please bare with me this will be long).  

I was young and I get that so I hear constantly that I shouldn't be as upset as I am.  

So imagine.   You have memory's still of someone who is a major part of your life like your dad.  So actually imagine girls the guy who is supposed to be your first love the biggest part of your life your best friend.  The guy who is supposed to walk you down the isle.  The guy who is supposed to embarrass you and help you through your hardest times.  The guy who people don't talk about that often but when you do you have to try your best to remember because you didn't get to know him as much as you did.  The guy who you only remember from faint memory's and pictures.   The guy you only get to hear about when your mom is drunk and saying things about his death like it is nothing.  The guy who was supposed to make the constant dad jokes that you would hear about constantly and just wish you could hear in person.  Imagine your mom taking down the picture or memory's of him.  Or your moms boyfriends saying things about him or trying to replace him.  Then imagine crying about it then getting made fun of on the anniversary of his death or his birthdays.  And guys imagine hearing all the story's of all the other boys playing catch with their dads.  Or anyone imagine all the pain behind the years without your dad or anyone in this case with people making jokes about cancer then being called a cry baby about being upset about it.  Imagine your whole life crumpling or being completely different in one way that everyone will treat you differently because or always being the girl with the dead dad the cry baby the wimp.  Imagine somethings that you loved being ruined by their death imagine constantly being told  "you are just like your dad"  out of nowhere and just imagining what he was like.  Just imagine the greatest person you would have ever known the person who in everyone else's life is their hero being gone and the stupid reminders everyday.