My Endeavor

Chapter 29: "Torn"

You left me... you told me you would always be there for me... you lied.

"Will he wake up?"
"We don't know"
"How much time?"
"We don't know.. days... months... years"

Years
Years
Years...

Years... that word echoed and hunted my mind every day. Day after day, week after week for the past 4 months.

After the incident at the cabin, Luca was rushed into the hospital, we had our hopes high that he was going to make it, but life had other plans. During the surgery he went into cardiac arrest the injury trauma took a massive toll on his body, doctors tried all they could but he slipped into a coma. And like they said, we have no idea when he will wake.

I sit on this hospital chair like I've been doing day after day for the past 4 months, just to look at him and hope that my voice and presence will somehow bring him back... but I guess is just not enough. My heart aches seeing him on this bed and all those tubes and machinery around him, trying to keep him here with us but his soul just wants to fade away. I can't help but think of those dreams I had of the man tied up in chains screaming to help him, and me not being able too... It this what those dreams were preparing me for? But instead of chains, it's these tubes and machines. I take a firm grip of his hand and just cry out feeling hopeless.

"I love you too" I whisper. "I should have told you sooner, I should have stayed with you at the club and never left, this is all my fault." I will always blame my self... I should have never gone home that night.

I place my hand on my 8 1/2 month pregnant belly and continue to cry. I just recently found out I was having a little girl, I was hesitant to find out about the sex at first but Nik insisted I did. Nik recovered fully from his wounds and has not left my side ever since. The rest of the men have been very attentive as well. And like exited uncles they have been spoiling this baby rotten with gifts and setting up the nursery for her. But deep inside I know they are doing this as a distraction, ever since the incident, they haven't heard anything about the Yakovich's. Donatello suggested they went underground into hiding, but of course, Giorgio doesn't believe him, he thinks something else is up and Donatello could be involved. There's been a massive amount of tension in the house with those two.

Giorgio visits Luca's room every morning, I usually hear him talk to him, he misses his brother and from all of us, I know he's the one suffering the most. I get brought back from my thoughts by the sound of someone entering the hospital room,! I look up and see Cass walking and Giorgio right after. Confused at the sight I stood up and walk towards them both.

"Good morning Vicky." Cass gives me a warm smile.

"Is everything okay?"

"I brought you both here today because I have to discuss something with you both since you are Luca's next of Kin."

"Get to the point Cass!" Gio snaps.

"There's no easy way of saying this but, I've been following up closely to Luca's brain activity for the last 4 months... he hasn't shown any significant amount of development or improvement. At this rate there's a probability that he might never wake up... I'm sorry."

"What? His heart is still beating!? I can see him breathing this makes no sense!" I grab on to Cass's lab coat and pull on it with anger. "What do you mean!"

Cass takes a deep breath and looks at me, putting his hands on my shoulder taking a firm grip. "What I mean is, these machines are the only thing giving him life... without them, his body is just nothing."