[HimChan's POV]
"Palli!! Yah Zelo get ready we're going to meet up with manager Kang for your schedules!! Hey don't just sit there and do nothing, Young Jae and Daehyun, you too go get ready. Yongguk help me wake up Jong Up from his sleep" Tae Jin shouts woke me up from my sleep.
I he'd a brisk shower and dress up for the meeting. After all of s was dressed and ready we ate the breakfast that she prepared.
"Yongguk, Daehyun, Zelo, Jong Up, Young Jae and Himchan, thank you for taking care of me" She said with a bow at us.
"You're leaving?!" shouted Zelo seems unbelievable at her words, she nodded. "You said you'd leave end of this month!" unsatisfied with her Daehyun joined Zelo criticising our babysitter.
"Let her go where she wanted to go" I defended her. "Himchan is right… we should at least support her to show our gratitude" Yongguk backing me up.
Then the living room went silent. Escorting us to our van, saying goodbye with a wide smile…yet her eyes full with sadness.
My heart felt stuffed up with sadness and it's felt the same as that time...the time my princess and I went apart.
~*~*~ after the meeting
[Yongguk pov ]
After the meeting Himchan look lifeless, maybe something bad happened to him. He said nothing about the date…maybe he's rejected??
Is it why he called Tae Jin? I'm curious but I won't interfere but if it will distracted him from focusing on work, I'll have to interfere. Not only as his leader but as his best friend, I'll try to help him out.
Today is Tae Jin last day, she told everyone else that she’ll be leaving end of this month…but letting me to be the one who know about it first… what is she planning to do?
I admit that I like her. But only as a precious little sister . She is full of clumsiness and cuteness.
"Hyung, what's wrong your face is red...are you sick?" ask Zelo concerning about my health state.
"No, I'm fine" I reply immediately. Worrying about the other members, looking down and lifeless…
"You guys can rest for today, tomorrow you'll be busy and it's going to be hard without TJ…" Manager Kang sighed at end of his words.
Tae Jin-ah where are you going? Are you leaving because of Himchan? those kind of questions keep popped up in my mind.
"I'm going to sleep…don't wake me up" I told them, the other members nodded as we walked out towards our van…
At the end all of us trying to erase her existence in our minds…it's hurt when someone leaving you behind…
I wonder if everyone else has the same feeling towards her?
[Zelo pov]
Tonight dinner is prepared by Himchan hyung…and not Tae Jin. I wonder what is this feeling of uneasiness. Maybe it's because I have been eating the meals that TJ prepared until this morning.
I feel pathetic. It's even hurt when Lena told me that Tae Jin move to other school…I feel betrayed.Yet Tae Jin has been helping me to get Lena date with me…
[Youngjae pov ]
Even though Himchan hyung cooked our favorite food which always been so delicious but tonight it's tasteless…
All I can think about is why and how could she leave us. It felt like she's still here laughing and scolding us.
Her warmth is still lingers in our dorm. At times I slipped her name accidentally in our chats.
[Jongup pov ]
Why?! why does she left me again? No, not this time…she left us. Yes, she left all of B.A.P members and it's hurt more, because she left me twice.
Betrayed and hatred..that's all I can feel towards her. Tae Jin existence is important to us. I bet Himchan hyung is in a bliss, cause he never liked her after all.
*~*~*
Few months after Tae Jin left they received a letter from her. They were scared to open the letter, because of that no one touch the letter.
"What's wrong with us?! Scared of a letter and when are we going to stop being afraid of a piece of paper?!" shouted Himchan can't bear his feelings anymore.
"I owe you for this one…" Yongguk replied. "But who knows what was written on it" says Young Jae.
"Well…who's going to read it first?" Zelo's question made the member turn their heads towards Himchan.
"Geez, fine I'll read it" as Himchan said that he snatch the letter from Yongguk's hand.
~*~*~*~*
15 minutes past since Himchan start reading the letter. "Hyung, what did she wrote?" ask Daehyun curiously, yet Himchan didn't answer it. The other members could see that he's holding his tears back.
"Is it something bad?" Jongup asked concerns about his hyung. "It felt like…" searching and words Himchan muttered and burst into tears.
"Eeh! hyung what's wrong?" Zelo pats his back. " I'm…s-sorry…Tae Jin forgive me…" those words made them realise that they need a read the letter.
§To my dearest boyband,B.A.P.§
You guys are the best oppa ever! Understanding, caring and loving me up till the day I leave. Don't worry about me too much, focus on music and your future goals. I hope you guys will find someone who you treasure.
You are smarter than you are now. I know that you guys can do more than what you're doing now. so work hard and please take care of your bad habit!
The last thing is,
I have something to confess to you guys but before that I've entrust Kang-nim to give the letters I wrote one for each month, 60 letters total, the truth is that I leave you guys for my operation and I have the cancer is since I was a kid. Forgive me.
Tae Jin,
10/4/14.
"It's written last month" Yongguk words made them burst into tears and trembling. But Himchan stand still- dumbfounded.
