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After Heather Chandler Dies

Heathers/Chansaw Angst, cause why not? *Suicide/ self-harm trigger warning*

Like, right after. Veronica's just staring, void of any feelings. She just killed her best friend. JD keeps saying "And your worst enemy." Not that it's helping much. She can't move. She forgets to breathe. Did she even consider Heather a friend?

And then it hits her. The gravity of the situation. Heather's dead. And Veronica handed her the cup that finished it. Veronica killed Heather Chandler. She's still standing there, Heather's hand on her thigh where it landed.

And then she collapses. On her knees, in front of Heather. And she's crying. Crying and apologizing and hugging the corpse and JD's in the background watching but not doing anything and she's there. Clutching the dead girl as the last of the warmth fades away.

And JD leaves. He fucks off and leaves Veronica alone. Kurt and Ram never died. But he did, a few weeks later. Veronica shut everyone out after. JD knew he made her feel like that. And he loved her, and thought "A life for a life" is a pretty fair trade. So he offs himself. The same way his mom did.

And Veronica stops eating. She stops going to school. Because this was also her fault. Now she had two deaths on her hand. First her best friend and then her boyfriend. She's thought about it a thousand times in the past week. How the world would be better without her in it. How they'd probably both be alive.

So, for the first time in a month, Veronica leaves the house. She attends school. Duke and Mac try to offer her what little comfort they can, but it's not working. Her grades are slowly getting worst. She used to be a straight-A student, but over these weeks, she's dropped to a B-. Then a C. And they aren't getting better.

And she's home and wishing JD was never a part of her life and wishing Heather was back and wishing it could go back to that fateful day in the bathroom and wishing she remembered where the razors are and almost thankful that she doesn't. Almost.

Duke comes over and tries to get her to eat something (what a hypocrite) and Mac just comes and lays with her and helps her out with basic stuff like homework and enjoying movies and whatnot. And it's not their fault, it's really not. Veronica enjoys their meaningless efforts, but it's not enough to bring a smile to her face.

Because it's not going to get better. Ever.

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Heather Chandler just watches. From the moment the drano hit her throat, burning far worst than any alcohol she's had. She watches her body falling to the floor, and how she used her last bit of strength to use Veronica as a support. And she's pissed off at Veronica, pissed off and heartbroken.

Why would you do this? Why did you think I deserved this?

Heather wants to cry. Ghosts don't cry.

And then she watches Veronica panic. She's balling and hugging Heather's lifeless body and any anger immediately fades and Heather hugs Veronica telling her it'll be ok.

But Veronica can't hear her.

Heather watches as Veronica spirals into depression. She watches as the scars show up on her legs, arms, back, as they now do after Veronica drags the razor across her skin.

They stop after a while, but Heather feels Veronica wanting to cut more. Heather sends a silent prayer to god, thanking him that she can interact with limited objects, such as that box.

She watches Mac, and Duke too. Duke has gotten considerably better, not purging after every meal. And Heather feels guilty for that (maybe it was her fault that she started that in the first place). Duke took a bullet through her heart and survived.

Mac, on the other hand, has gotten worst. She cries herself to sleep every night. She only eats lunch (the one meal everyone can see them eat). There are thin scars on her hips that weren't there before. And Heather wishes she could tell her to stop (look! I'm right here!). But Mac never hears her.

She watches, helpless, as Mac and Duke put on brave faces and try to help Veronica. Veronica lets them, but it's not making a dent. Heather knows because as soon as she died, she could feel everything Veronica felt. Like a spirit link with your killer.

She talks to Veronica in her dreams, and Duke and Mac, but mostly Veronica.

Veronica never remembers them.

Heather is shadowing Duke one day, listening to her tell Mac over the phone that she misses Heather, and wants her back, and Heather's touched. Until she goes cold. She can't feel anything but numb and cold now. The world's going dark and her lungs are filling up with water. Except she can breathe perfectly fine (as fine as a dead person). And then she truly loses feeling.

And...

Veronica. She's standing there. Staring at Heather. Soaking wet.

Dead.

Heather says one thing before fading.

"I forgive you."

And it's Veronica's turn to watch over Duke and Mac.