Head In The Clouds

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6:08. Why can't I ever wake up at 6. It's like my body wants me to be late. I'm sitting up in bed like I probably will be for the next 5 minutes. Like I do everyday. I glare at my closet the whole time, I didn't even pick out my outfit last night. Today's gonna be another awful day at school.

I really got lost in my thinking I check my phone frantically. 6:20. Fuck. Now I'm really gonna be late.

I run to the kitchen and make breakfast for my siblings. They deserve it, they don't wake up late, they don't turn in papers late, they don't question anything. They're perfectly perfect and annoyingly cute.

Carson likes nutella toast, Alice likes... fuck what does Alice like. I'm just gonna make her and Mika the same thing. Two pieces of nutella toast cut diagonally, two bowls of lucky charms. I'm done, now I just have to wake them up.

"Carson! Its 6:30 you have to wake up or you'll be late for choir!"

"Shut up I'll be on time just stop waking me up I'll get up on my own!"

Fine, if he wants to be late he can be, I dont have time to deal with him this morning. Still though, does he have to yell at me, he knows mom tells me to wake him up at 6:30. I dont have time to contemplate life right now.

"Alice wake up baby, you gotta get up so you can go to school and play with your friends!" This time I don't yell I just act all cheery and confident. My brother doesn't wake up unless you yell, but my little sisters wake up without any effort.

"Ok stef, I'll get up. Do you want me to wake up Mika?"

"That would he so helpful and nice. Be gentle though don't be mean."

I leave and go back to my room to get dressed. The worst part of my day. I can dress to make myself happy or to make my mom happy. Who am I kidding I'm always gonna dress so she doesn't whine. I hold up a loose, flowy shirt.

I hate it, but I know my mom will love it. I grab my blue hoodie as I leave my closet. I dont even bother to check the mirror. I throw on some boxers and my blue and black jeans, at least thatll make me feel a little better. I hear my mom pull into the driveway and slip on some sneakers.

"Alice, Mika, how are you doing?"

"I'm all ready for school Stef. Mika's getting her shoes on."

Great news. Maybe we wont be late today. I drag myself to my brothers room and check on him. As per usual he's wearing completely mismatched clothes and his shoes are untied. That would all be relatively ok except hes playing on his phone and his hair and room are a mess.

"Carson get your coat and backpack moms here."

"Huh?"

"Put the phone down and get your backpack and coat. Mom is here."

"Ok I'll be down in a sec."

Great. I grab my stuff and take my little sisters downstairs. They get in the car with me and Carson gets down in a minute. He looks awful but at least he's clothed and were gonna be on time.

Fuck, I forgot my flute. I run inside and grab it.

7:15, perfect time.

Maybe today will be a good day after all.

...

8:32. First period starts in 13 minutes. I have my hoodie on now and I have absolutely no clue what'll happen today, but social studies is an easy class. My gaze drifts to a latina girl across the gym. I dont realize I'm staring till she waves and comes over to talk to me.

Fuck, I am the literal definition of awkward. I can barely talk to nerdy guys that I'm friends with, let alone this cute girl I only know from PE.

I realize shes sitting in front of me and quickly try and find somewhere to look. This shouldnt be so hard. I make eye contact and can feel my face flash red, great. She laughs a little and moves her hair behind her ear.