idiot.. | reader x bts

lie - 2

(author's note: sorry for the lack of updates;;; i'll make sure to try and work on this more oftennnn 😔✊
- 1.1k words. the longest so far.

jungkook pov-

to be honest, you didn't know why she had lied. you couldn't wrap your head around it, at all. you thought she was dead, you thought you would never see her again. suddenly, the memory of the day after she dissapeared came to mind. you all had recently found out that she had commited suicide. what you didn't know at the time was that she was actually alive.

the day after the suicide-

you sat down at the lunch table where you and the others would gather- you, taehyung, jimin, hobi, namjoon and yoongi. jin usually had archery, and you had rightfully expected him to be gone, especially today. taehyung took a shaky breath once everyone had sat down. everyone at the table was thinking the same thing. is y/n really dead?  'listen, everyone..' taehyung started. 'i-i don't know what to say...i...didn't see this coming..' he gulped. jimin sighed. 'let's just....eat and we'll talk about her when we're done..' jimin said, wanting to get everyone fed. 

namjoon nodded, and you, well.. had already started eating. eating was always a special comfort for you, especially after your father was killed, you couldn't help it. taehyung shook his head. 'i can't eat, not now...' he muttered, then his eyes started filling with tears. you quickly swallowed your food and pulled him close. 

jimin, at the other end of the table scooted closer and hugged him with you. taehyung weeped on your chest, his tears soaking your shirt. but that didn't matter to you in that moment, you just wanted to be there for him. the hug lasted for a while, a few people in the school stared, but everyone knew that y/n was the person he loved the most in the world. you ruffled taehyung's hair. 'cmon, you should eat something..' you said, almost choking on your words, your eyes already blurry from the impending tears. 'o-okay..' taehyung said shakedly, lifting his head off your chest and starting to eat slowly, his tears still occasionally dripping down into his food. you looked at the others at the table. yoongi had slipped away to the bathroom, hobi was picking at his food and namjoon had his head lowered, deep in thought, sadness obvious on his face. you finished eating soon after taehyung had finished and you still sat there in silence. yoongi had come back from the bathroom and you locked eyes with him, exchanging a silent message. 

did you know she was going to die? you lifted an eyebrow at yoongi. 
if i had, i would have helped her.. yoongi stared back.
you sighed and got your things. 'hey, i'm going home. tae, wanna come with me?' tae nodded and left with you, and afterwards, nothing much happened. 

present day- 

you thought about how you had arranged to meet with taehyung at your apartment. after y/n had dissapeared, he started depending on you more; coming to your house more often, telling you everything, and even occasionally he would talk about how much he missed y/n. 
now, you wonder how he'll react if he realizes she's really alive. you sigh and sit down on the couch, wondering when they'll arrive. you looked at the clock, and realized it was a long way's off. two hours? pfft, might as well go and talk with y/n. you got up and knocked on her door. 'y/n? can we..talk?' 

(get your wigs glued on or else ladies and gentlemen)

your pov-

you heard a knock on the door and got up, opening it to be faced with jungkook. who else could it be? you looked at him, confusedly. 'uh...yeah?' you asked. ' do you wanna just talk about..' he sighed. 'everything..?' you smiled gently and nodded. you sat down on your bed, next to jungkook, waiting for a question. 'so, where were you all this time..?' jungkook asked. 'i..i moved to a different town, and did some exchange programs. that's why you never saw me..' you responded. 'we..' he gulped. 'we, thought you were dead..' he said. you sighed. 'i was supposed to die. i wanted to die. but i failed, so i only ended up getting hurt. so i got plastic surgery, dyed my hair and i moved away. that's why you never ran into me back home.' you said, waiting for his upcoming question. 'you should.. say something to taehyung..' jungkook admitted. you sighed. 'he would probably hate me forever..' jungkook shook his head. 'maybe he would understand..you never know until you try..' he pleaded. 'fine...but i'll tell yoongi first. i'll tell taehyung later, once yoongi gives me some advice.' you responded, not wanting to open up to taehyung just now, even if you had been with him for over a year before you dissapeared. 'fine. just don't be a stranger okay? i'm always here..we should catch up or something later, for now jin and tae are comin' over, so you should go out somewhere, maybe study?' jungkook suggested. 'sure, i wouldn't want them getting suspicious.' you got your bag and put on your jacket, not wanting to get discovered this quickly. you waved to jungkook and left the dorm and wandered outside for a while, not wanting to run into anyone from your life before. you go into a cafe, (since you were cold) and order a matcha latte and sit down at a table. you are sitting there for a while, scrolling through instagram when you hear a familiar voice. namjoon. you freeze for a moment then shrug it off, and take out your notebook and textbook and start doing your homework to put your mind off of things. suddenly, the same voice says something. 'can i sit down with you..? all the other tables are taken and..uh...it looks like we might be from the same university.' you look up and make eye contact, then remind yourself that you don't want to be recognized. you look back down quickly. 'yeah, go ahead..' you mutter before continuing the homework, namjoon sitting down in front of you and quietly beginning his homework as well. you wait a while before you hear the cafe baristas say your name quite loudly. you blush hard, knowing that namjoon would become suspicious. you got up and went to the counter to get your drink, and quickly returned to your seat.  

about an hour after, you finished your work and started packing your things back into your bag. you finished packing your things and took your drink and stood up, and left the cafe, hoping namjoon wouldn't mention what had happened to the others. you arrive home, seeing taehyung on the couch. you bowed, not taking off your scarf so he wouldn't recognize you. 'hello.' you said, not wanting to say your name. you took off your shoes and waddled to your room, and locked your door. you sighed and crawled into bed to fall asleep. 

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