Who I Am? - Emmerdale

005 | The Morning After - Part One

Abigail's pov

After the hell of a night I curled up in my bed thinking to myself what I did wrong to deserve this life, I hated it and knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to leave. The next morning when my step mother Chloe entered the room I was already awake and dressed, I was writing in my English book, well trying too. I was struggling on how to write a poem about my life; who knew it would be this hard.

"Oh your up, I thought I'd of had to wake you" Chloe smiled in shock, she then noticed my tights had a rip in and frowned

"Why are you wearing those tights Abi? They have a hole in" Chloe exclaimed showing the side to her which hardly ever comes out for me, I opened my notepad and began writing

"These are the last pair I have, they got caught on something yesterday" I showed my step mother the book who sighed.

"How about I pop to the shop and buy you a pair for break time?, I'll drop them off for you" Chloe asked as I looked at her with hope in my eyes, I wasn't sure if she was being serious or not but I hoped she was.

"Are you being serious? If you are yes please" I wrote as I bit my lip anxiously.

"Abigail I know you don't like me but I'm not that bad. Why don't you come down for some breakfast and I'll do your hair for you today?" Chloe asked with a genuine smile on her face. I nodded forcing a smile to form on my face. I'd never really seen this side of my step mother, not with me anyway, she usually focuses on Luke and Molly and I'm left on my own. I stood up from my chair and packed away my homework which I had been working on and followed my step mother downstairs. Luke and Molly were sat at the kitchen table eating a bowl of coco pops each while they laughed at each other

"Cereal or toast?" Chloe asked me

"Toast please" I wrote down showing Chloe who nodded and popped two slices of bread into the toaster while I sat in between my two younger siblings.

"Jam, chocolate spread or just butter?" Chloe then asked me

"Jam please" I wrote showing Chloe again who nodded and sorted my breakfast out. Chloe soon placed a plate of toast in front of me and stood behind me bruising my hair

"French braids or a normal plat," Chloe asked me while I put one finger up indicating I wanted French braids

"Two French braids it is" Chloe responded and began to style my hair. I nibbled on my toast anxiously, I felt as if Chloe had anterior motive but I wasn't going to knock it. When I finished my toast Chloe was only half way through my second braid so I sat in my seat listening to my younger siblings talking about what seemed to be a lot of rubbish.

"Right all done" Chloe smiled before taking my plate aswell as Luke and Molly's bowls. I stood up and took myself upstairs to my bathroom where I brushed my teeth and washed my face before I added a little make up to cover the black bags under my eyes and the bruise I had on my forehead where I had hit it that night.

"Gail mummy told me to tell you we're leaving in ten minutes" Molly spoke as she walked into my bedroom. I nodded to the younger girl.

"Gail why don't you talk?" Molly asked me in her cute voice simply I shook my head knowing she wouldn't understand even if I did speak to explain it. Molly sighed and left my room. I did feel bad; really bad but talking is the only thing I can control; if I don't speak I can't let things slip, if I don't let things slip I don't get hurt. That's just how things are. Once I was sorted once again I made my way downstairs where I joined Chloe, Molly and Luke in the hallway

"You ready to go?" Chloe asked me and I nodded picking my bag up from by the stairs and heading out to the car with the three of them, I helped Chloe get Molly in the car while she got Luke in.

"Here's your lunch money and a little extra because you've proved you can get along with me" Chloe smiled, I nodded with a small smile on my face; if only she knew what I was planning on doing. I put the money in my phone case knowing I wasn't going to spend it, I was going to put it in my purse when I got home.

"Would you like to take Molly and Luke into school with me today?" Chloe asked as we began driving down the road towards the primary school, it would be nice to take my younger siblings into school so I nodded. Chloe put the music on and in the back Molly tried singing along which made a smile grow wide on my face, it was the cutest when she tried to sing. As Chloe drove towards the school I kept my eyes fixed on the window watching the trees and people rolling past. After the drive to the school I got out of the car getting Molly out the car while Chloe got Luke out the car.

"Gail are you coming to pick us up from school with mummy today?" Molly asked in her cute voice while I simply shook my head.

"Abigail has a detention today Mols' she's been naughty at schools but she'll come and pick you up for the rest of the week" Chloe explained to the younger children. Molly took my hand as we began walking into the primary school, Molly walked with a hop in her step while holding my hand.

"Can we play in the garden when you get home Gail?" Molly asked me and I nodded while Chloe opened the door to the school and walked in with Luke, I followed with Molly.

"Molly" shouted one of Molly's friends as she ran towards us.

"DeeDee this is my sissy Gail, she doesn't talk" Molly introduced me to her friend as she let go of my hand

"Why doesn't she talk?" DeeDee asked Molly who shrugged while looking up to me. Molly, DeeDee and Luke went off. Chloe put her arm around my shoulder and I glanced up at her.

"She means nothing by it, you know that. You will be able to get through this; when you finally find the courage to speak then I'll be here. I'm not making you speak now, I'm not going to force you to speak. I know your scared, off what I don't know but it will get better and it will be easier as you get older" Chloe said softly as we walked out of the school, for the first time in a very long time I felt like I was loved and cared for and feeling like that was the best feeling ever but I knew it wouldn't last forever.

Wrote - 21st September 2018
Posted - 12th October 2018