It all seemed easy when we first expressed our feelings for each other like nothing or no one could bring us down. In the beginning, things were simple. We liked each other and maybe wanted to pursue a relationship in the near future. Pretty painless and effortless, right? I thought so too, but it all just became so complicated once we started dating. He started acting controlling, like when I told him I was going to go to a party he immediately told me I couldn't go because I would just cheat on him. Of course, I started getting frustrated at him for even saying I would cheat on him. It seemed to me that he didn't trust me, which really hurt. He promised me that if I didn't go to the party that he would come over after work. Knowing he wouldn't, I just went to bed. The next few days weren't any better. I had been wanting him to come over so we could have sex, knowing that being "in the mood" doesn't stick around very long with me. He always made an excuse as to why he couldn't come over, so I did what I needed to do. While my guy friend, Josh, was back in town for a little while, we decided to hook up one night. He and I both knew that I was still in a relationship, but I just didn't feel right about our relationship that night. I know it was wrong to cheat on him, even though we were in a bad place. Jerred still doesn't know about the hook up for a number of reasons. It would just make everything so much worse than it already was. That following Monday I tried breaking up with him, but he basically trapped me, saying I couldn't leave and that we could work things out. I kept telling him no, this conversation went on for about an hour. Later on, he was threatening to expose me to everyone. Of course, I was nervous about it because I knew he would do it, but he still never did. No matter what happened between us.
