Ultimate Sacrifice

Addiction

So as the days pass the thrill to talk to that specific person increased, it was like a unwanted addiction which led me to message her every time everyday. A person develops a habit in just 21 days and we were long past these 21 days. After a month I realized that she was innocent and a bit immature. I considered this act of time passing to turn it to a counselling session. Because regarding my own experiences I've had my piece of pie. So I didn't wanted that someone else should go through that and learn this the hard way. The crush on her diverted. I didn't felt for her like that now.
We were on a different road now. By my analysis we were going into a good friendship zone by that I literally won't refer to being "friend zoned". She had that potential to show to other that she is boss, she can be a badass. Our topic discussion was vast it was smooth and enjoyable like there was never a single moment where I felt to leave or got bored, same for her she had this immense collection of answers to my questions and they were concrete and challenging. To asking about our families we went "Is Area 51 hiding aliens?". It was a land slide, a black hole of never ending conversation.
It had been two months now we were pouring huge amount of interest in each other. I have this assumption that our conversation started with the ongoing of our class and the usual tantrums beside that I don't think we could've embraced all of this we have or perhaps had.
All the conversations we had up till three months were sideways we didn't talked much about our life our past or present but we did talked about our future so I leaped in first to share one my devastated life experience similar to the topic we were discussing. It was a real solid feeling because i mostly lack in sharing and she understood me well and there was no pity in her replies there was a sort of buck up and appreciation that "yes man you did this on your own and you have nailed it." This was the first wall I broke to let her in this stupid and messy soul and so did she. I being the counsellor analyzed her part and replied accordingly. This was the mistake we both made not keeping in our context that it would bring chaos. From that night onward we successfully shared our past and our present without hesitation.
Four months passed it was September which also happens to be my birth month and I was at my village to attend a wedding ceremony. We were chatting as usual now we were "good friends" or I would say "understanding friends". It was like something is missing from day if I haven't talked to her and told her about how I was and asked her how is she doing etc etc. We were forming bridges and these bridges were on honesty and pureness there were no devilish maneuvers in my mind or any expectation in return. I didn't took this bond for granted and God knows I have helped her in situations she didn't even she was in. I didn't had any intentions of any sort behind this I've never wanted anything from her.
I had this gift of some sort that I start having vibes for bad happenings and this was the moment I started having these vibes but i over looked them because I liked talking to her. She was the book I loved to read everyday without any hesitation and so I did. Unwillingly I did what I wasn't supposed to do. This was addiction that I walked into without even thinking about it and so did she. Mid September she had to leave the country as she visited Pakistan on summer vacations. 22nd September 2017 the day of her flight and it was the day I was feeling sad, don't know why but it was this feeling of emptiness that was scratching the walls of my thoughts and it was affecting my daily routine.
She landed safely at Jeddah and it was a new direction once again. Friend across thousands of miles. We chatted and talked and cursed and shared and did everything we could to read each other inside out. It was starting to increase day by day the feeling of remorse and letting go because Saudia was two hours behind and I had stay up late to talk to her. But I couldn't help it I just wanted to explore this amazing being. So to hell with my routine, so what if my eight hour sleep pattern turn to five hour. I'll cope up and I did it with difficulty.
It had been 5 months now and we were completely used to each other like we were buddies and this road was the one I chose because if I still continued with that "good friends" I would surely had done something foolish. But who knew what fate was writing for me.