Ultimate Sacrifice

Understanding

It was the most thrill seeking adventure I was on reading her and it has been a joy up till now. I was not only over whelmed but I was philosophical about her all the time. The friendship turned into being her bestie. It was an honor for me to develop such deep understanding with her and I could suffer and adjust with anything to keep it the way it was, I might not be mature enough but it was enough to go through her skin and to know the exact personality she had deep within all that attitude all the confidence all that ego. At this point I believed that a boy and girl can be JUST friends( its wrong though).
Finding the ecstasy of ourselves was our main purpose and we had various means to obtain that. Although I was keeping a barrier between us but she was unhesitant and was deeply involved with me. Six months is a huge time frame and this was more than enough for me to know her better then herself I always had this regret that I should have let her in and should have talked about myself more but all I did was to know her to explore how her mentality works. The key factor which aggregated this relation was the time period we had to talk. We mostly had those late night or early morning talks when eyes were tired hearts were opened and mind was just giving things away. It was like petrol to the raging fire I had for her.
I kept a firm control on it and I didn't let this stupid crush destroy things between us. It was really difficult but I over came it by a simple formula to divert the car every time I had that vibe and now God we were i don't where but it was something really intense yet those feelings were buried. So I was OKAY with it I guess. We were compassionate about each other thoughts and perspectives. That was the ingredient which made this story exciting. I always kept things under a specific radar which was the reason of our bondage. Not too much not too less this was the phrase which turned out to be life saving. Undermining my health and my routine I sacrificed my sleep for her (as earlier mentioned) and this was variable. Instantaneously we were embedded to each other daily lives.
My main agenda was still to remove that insecurity and that shyness and that immaturity she had in her and I was dubious on some occasions but being bias I liked being dubious. She was getting smarter and held matter at hand with maturity and calmness, so my trainings were showing some colours.
Now was the stage after eight months where our talking pattern turned to extreme casual and the pictures were exchanged and opinions were asked and advice's were given, the daily life tantrum session were held. This was I would say the glory period. There is one thing we need to know about any girl THEY LIKE PEOPLE WHO PRAISE THEM. It doesn't matter how egoistic she is she will always melt on praising it is experimented and approved everywhere in the world. But being her bestie it was my sworn duty to insult her and make her realize that she is a worthless piece of crap. So I never praised her I never said Gosh you're so beautiful etc. I always neglected saying the things I so much craved to say. Even when she send me those pieces of wonder I would take a moment look at it then blush like an ifiot for several minutes, then say "ughh.. how can someone be this ugly??" There was this moment where I realized that I was sort of dominant over her and whatever I said whatever told her she would exactly the same and I didn't want that. God I don't want someone to obey me and say "Yes Sir" to everything I demand. It is unethical and against the self respect of humans.
This was the turn which changed everything like a climax of my story where I asked her about her previous relations and she said that there was this one relation which was obviously temporary and she was much more stupid at that time. But the one guy who loved her and has been talking to her for almost two years got my attention. She was into him and he was in love with her. This guy was the reason that she changed herself into this egoistic arrogant person. I praise him for that even now I say that whatever he has done it was a good job. Now the feelings for her were altering to a more powerful form. They were backfiring whenever I tried to suppress them. Somehow I managed and be that counselor for her telling her what to do about that guy.
She told me each and everything about Asim then I analyzed and gave the solution to her problems. The issue she was having that Asim was a conservative person. He lacked the seed of women freedom, he was cringy when she talked to other boys rather then her cousins in fact there was one occurrence when he asked to boycott all of his male cousin. All of this was because he KNEW THEM BETTER. But it was insecurity and that insecurity comes with package of LOVE. I was deemed to make her stand in front of the world and that world included Asim also. Bragging about how they both have been through the difficult times I just listened and focused on the points of insecurity. He was utterly dominant over her. He just ordered that don't do this, don't do that, don't talk to him etc and she said Okay Boss. So after hearing all of this dramatic turnover I was feeling raged and furious over Asim that How can he?! This was making a new direction for me to on and I had that vibe.