i called you that night, do you remember? it was the light of my day and became the light of my life for three years.
that night i learned you were a college student and studying art. i wouldn't know what college was like since i dropped out, but you didn't care if i went to college or not.
that night you learned i was trying to find what i wanted to do with my life, even if i was urged to do dance. i didn't know that i'd want to start a family with you.
that night i learned you had grown up in busan, but moved to seoul when you were only fifteen. maybe if you stayed in seoul for college, none of this would have happened.
that night you learned i was the youngest and only son out of six kids. you made me feel better about being the only son, but lord did i not know that you'd make me feel worse about myself.
it was almost two in the morning when we hung up. before that though, we both had a moment of realization; we didn't know each other's names.
i told you my name was chance lee, even though i was born lee changwoo. changwoo was someone i wanted to put behind me, but you brought it back up on the third year.
and your name— god, i loved it so much. just the sound of it made my heart flutter.
but now? i can't bear to hear the name jeon jeongguk.
