Love bound

Pain and heatbreak

I walked aimlessly around the boardwalk going form store to store, ride to ride clutching onto Charles’s bear as I walk my hair was a mess my cloths were dirty from walking in dirt, mud and dusty roads all over town, I’m not sure how long I’ve been walking but I know it was all day cause before I knew it, it had gotten dark fast. I had been searching for my son all day but had not found one trace of him, I looked at a clock in a store window nine thirty Dwayne should be up by now. I walked to the main gate and sure enough there he was sitting with the boys on their bikes, I slowly try to make my way to him stumbling around the crowd of people.

When I finally get to him I grab on to his arm “Dwayne” I say when his eye meets mine and my appearance I see panic set in his eyes. “what happened?” he asked quickly getting off his back and wrapping his arms around me.
“Charles is gone” I say in a hoarse voice “I went home to get him, and the door was kicked in our things were destroyed and he…. he gone” once the last part came out of my mouth I finally broke down I dropped to my knees, tears stinging my eyes. I tried to hang on to Dwayne’s sleeve for support but failed, covering my face with one hand I try to find myself from everyone not wanting to face the truth trying to forget what could have happened or be happening to my son.

Dwayne………….

I stood there stunned I could feel the anger rising in me but then I look down to my girl, my emery then I just felt pain. Kneeling I wrap her in my arms rubbing her back “we’ll find him I promise” I told her in a hushed tone I swear when I get my hand on the man who dared to take my mates son...MY son ill rip him in half! After a few minuets her sobs stop lifting her up with me I steady her standing at some time the boys had joined us and were standing behind us “we will help look for him” David said in a dark tone.

That is one of the rules we have when it comes to a kid we always make sure no harm comes to them, and who ever does any harm always end up dead. “where do we start Hun?” Paul’s asked in a calming tone, I could tell he was trying not to show his vampire side we all were, we had all grown to love Charles he was part of our family him and emery. “I’ve checked everywhere I spent the whole day looking I can’t find any trace of him” she said I a panic, wrapping my arm around her I could feel her whole body shaking it broke my undead heart to see her like this. “we will all look all over town again and again until we find him I promise” I said holding her close “Paul you look around the train track and the woods, Marko you go look in all the stores in town and the beach, David you go look down streets and in neighborhoods, emery and I will look around here” I said pointing to each one as I gave them a place to search.
They each get onto their bikes and take off leaving us to look here.

I start to lead emery around the boardwalk, we looked through the stores again, the booths and the rides, we asked around emery had a small picture of him and showed it to every person we asked but in the end on one had seen him. We looked on the rides and in the old abandoned ones, but he was nowhere to be found. With every second she clutched the stuffed bear to her chest tighter and tighter her hand I was holding had begun to shake violently by the time we went through the last booth.

Emery……………….

We had just walked out of the last booth I asked the woman running it if she had seen my son and had shown her his picture but she had said no, we were going to walk tough again but I stopped causing Dwayne to stop as well “were never going to find him” I said my voice becoming more horse “I’m never going to see my son again” I cried leaning my head on his shoulder. I felt him bring me close “we will I promise” he said, I wish I could believe that I wish I could have faith in his words “you don’t know that. We have not found one trace of him” I cried wrapping my arms around myself.

Dwayne stiffened for a moment “what is it?” I asked quickly “Marko found something we need to meet him on the dock” he said grabbing my hand. He led me to the dock where we stood for several long minuets seven long long minuets those seven minutes felt like hours, I passed back and forth waiting occasionally looking up as someone walked passed us hoping it was Marko hoping he had Charles with him. Dwayne sat there on a bench, he seemed so calm how was he so calm?? “passing isn’t going to help love” he said in a calm tone “well what am I supposed to do?” I asked only stopping for a second “and how are you so calm? It’s like you don’t even car that he is gone” I said. And in that moment Dwayne had gotten up and made me face him holding my shoulders firmly “I do care if I didn’t I would not be out here helping you look for him…none of us would you both are part of this family your going to be my wife soon and I already think of him as a son so please Emery never say I don’t care about Charles” he said
I looked up at him and felt the weight of the guilt of what I had said “I’m sorry I know you love us you all do I’m just scared I’ve never been apart from him scenes he was born, this is all my fault I shouldn’t have left him alone, what kind of mother am I?” I could feel the tears stinging my eyes again.

“you’re a good mother Charles is lucky to have you any child would be luck to have you as a mother” he said trying to reassure me. I don’t know how long we stood there but soon enough we heard someone running words us…it was Marko he was carrying something small the closer I got to him the more I could make it out he was five feet away before I could tell what it was that’s when my heart dropped to my stomach. I ran to him taking the small object out of his hands holding it close observing it….and sure enough it was it, its Charles shoe there on the corner was a small stain of blood. Shaking uncontrollably, I drop to my knees in pain crying out ignoring the looks of people from the crowd ignoring Dwayne’s hands on my shoulders ignoring everything I felt nothing in that moment nothing but pain and heart ache.