Open Desires

Well well well

Derek POV

I walk into the condo and I don't see anyone. All I smell is something different. I've smelt this before. Isn't this Patrick's sh_t?!!! Well isn't that some f_cked up sh_t?!!! Breath Derek breath! This is not really gonna be a good night at all. Imma kill this dude bruh. What do I do? Should I walk over to his place? Maybe I should just wait till she gets home. I walk up stairs to our room. Wow doesn't this room smell festive. "Yay!" I say out loud sarcastically. I walk over to the bed. Why does it only smell like Shanti? I don't smell anything else but her. Mmmmmm I wonder if she used her favorite toy I bought her? "She had to be using that! I don't see any other conclusion as to why it only smells of her scent." I walk over to the head of the bed to see her phone on the floor. "OK that's there. Where is the toy?" I walk over to the other side, "Jackpot! I knew it was only her. But why does Patrick's scent fill downstairs? This is getting fishy by the moment." I walk back downstairs. I look at my watch and see that's it's after 5. Where the hell is she?! I walk out side and stood in front of the door. "Maybe she went to run" I thought, "or maybe she went over to Patrick's house to finish what she had started here?" I stepped away from the door and began to think, "Maybe I should go over to Pat to see if she is over there. But what if hes not home? What am I to do at that moment?" Ughhhhhh I walk back into the house and sat on the couch and started to dose off. "Mmmmmm yeah baby fuck me harder!" I hear my love's voice. What's going on? "Yeah you like this don't you b_tch?" What the f_ck is going on?!! Why won't words escape my mouth? Why didn't I feel her being aroused?! I awake with a headache! "F_ck!" I swore aloud. "I need to go to sleep but not here. I don't wanna have anymore day/night mares. Ughhhh when is she gonna get home?!" I got up and went to our room. "At least her scent is still here." I inhale and her scent filled my nose. I got to the foot of the bed and just let my body fall. I fell with a thud. I started to giggle remembering the first time we had sex on this bed. My mind spiralled into great thoughts of us getting older together making kids and all the best things that could happen after we get past today. And in between all of that I fell asleep.

                     

I don't know how long I was asleep but it felt like forever. I woke up to the sound of my alarm. Its morning already? I look over to my right no one. Well I guess she didn't come home last night. How am I suppose to make her my wife if she cheated on me? Man where is my girl? I pick up the house phone and called work, "Hello Mr. Valentine!" said my secretary. "Good Morning Abriana. I won't be coming in today. Please let the boss know that I'm not feeling so well ok?" "Yes sir Mr. Valentine. I hope you feel better. I'll see you on Monday." "Yes you will. Have a wonderful day." I hung up the phone. And as soon as I turned to my left two of the most amazing eyes are staring at me with concern. So she was on my left not right. She did come home. "Good morning. What's wrong? You look like you're looking at a ghost." She giggles. "D what's wrong? Why you not going to work today? It's Friday." I'm staring at her and she waves her hand in front of me. "Derek Valentine! You're scaring me! Respond!" I got up off the bed and walk to the bathroom not a word out of my mouth.

        

I walk back out and she isn't in the room. Oh well. She probably showered last night so she's probably already left for work. Oh well. Ain't like she was gonna actually explain what happened yesterday. "F_ck!" I said and broke down. "Man why did it have to be like this. I was gonna propose to her! The only reason I can feel what she does is because she's suppose to be mine." *Sniff* "Why did she have to do this to me?" "Why did who have to do what to you?" She said and her voice startled me. "YOU!!" Why am I yelling at her? Control Derek control. "Look f_cker! I didn't do sh_t I won't suppose to unlike you! I was at home yesterday trying to not cheat on you but make you feel like I was. I guess you were stupid enough to think that I had actually had sex with another guy!" She started crying and walked out. I stood there for a second and then I tried to catch up to her. But she was gone. How are we gonna go back from this? I took my phone out and called her. I went straight to voicemail. "F_ck! Sh_t! What the hell is wrong with me?!!! She loves me! She was just teasing me a little!" I ran upstairs to find me something else to wear cause I still had on my clothes from yesterday, got back down to the car and drove as fast as I could to meet the love of my life.

                                                 

                                   

                                

                                  

                              

                                                                      

                                  

                                             

                                                                          

                                                                     

                                            

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Well ain't that something. See you next time.