Living With CNCO

Chapter 14

So I was walking up to my mom's grave when I saw that someone put new flowers on her grave and they were her favorite ones too. I know it wasn't my dad that did it cause he has always been busy with work so I don't know anyone else that knows cause her family stops talking to us after her death, so I just let it pass and put my flowers down next to other ones. I was praying and telling my mom about my life after she died. I hope my mom has had a peaceful life in heaven and I hope she is with her family since my grandparents on my mom said died when I was just a baby. She told me about them and all but I wish I could have met them, I feel more lonely without my mom being here with me cause we did everything together she would always be there for me. But since my dad had his friends and their family/children come live with us life has been a roller coaster. I stayed there for most of the day but then decided that I was hungry so I went to go get lunch. I went to my favorite place which is O'Charley's, this time I went alone but I saw some people that I didn't want to see, but I just kept walking to my table I made sure that they didn't see me. Just got my dinner but told them I wanted to take it home, cause you to see I didn't want to see them any longer then I need to. I saw that they were trying to figure out who I was but I had my dad's hoodie. They gave me the food I already paid for it so I just ran out of there like crazy and that is where one of them saw it was me, I tried calling my dad he didn't pick up then I tried some of the boy's none picked up. So I kept running until I got back to my mom's grave. I took my phone up and took a picture with my mom's grave, I notice that those girls stop following me I didn't worry much about it but I did wonder why no one answered the phones when I tried to call for help. I just wondered a lot of things but then I just sat there eating by my mom's grave crying I miss her I wish I could have seen her smile, feel the warmth of her hugs, feel her little kisses on my forehead when I go to sleep. I had none of that because she died before I could. I got home a little late and I walked back into the house and none was there, I just went up to bed that night and cried myself to sleep.