19& a loser

The past

A mother is arranging her daughter's room when she found a notebook that her daughter wrote on in 19 & a loser she opened the notebook and start reading " all I just wanted is a simple dream but the life is just unfair "
Her eyes started to tear as she continue to read
Chapter one: The past
Once upon in time there were a woman named Evangeline who live in a world called Seven her family was wealthy but she didn't lived that happily her parents didn't have enough time to raise her so her grandmother raised her she lived 12 years away from her parents and when she came back to her parents she imagined that they will love her but her mother was so selfish and she treated her like her maid she didn't even care for her grades or anything she was just so selfish and her father was just agree with anything his wife said until she met someone who was from a poor family but he was kind hearted at Least at first , they were in love he was so handsome and she was so pretty everyone envy them when he propose to her after their engagement his brother died and they waited 4 years till they got married , at the day of their wedding he lost his ring everyone told her not to marry him your life will be a disaster she didn't believe them any way they didn't do an actual wedding party she didn't even wear the white dress but what they loved each other.
At the first week she found her self cleaning the house for her parent -in -law she didn't complain she lives with them in the same house , she cooked, she did everything after some time they had their own kind of apartment but it still in her parents-in-law house it was the second floor she was happy at that time she had her first baby it was a boy then the second then the third one by one they were all boys , a lot of kids at once because her husband wanted that she can't refuse cause if she that mean she'll get divorce and get back to her family and the stupid people will talk on her like she did something bad so she got divorce she just swallowed her pain and complete her life with them , her husband was just too much to handle every time she talks to him he would be so angry and yell at her she found that he was like a stranger for her, you might ask what happened to that love I'll tell you he listens to his mother and his demon like sister that hates her so much, every time she makes a meal his mother dropped and said that she didn't like it and when he comes she tells him that she didn't serve her anything and make him  with her , every time they make a family festival they didn't invite her and her husband just go alone without telling her and leave her with the kids , after seven years he wanted another kid but she didn't want but what could she do they had their fourth child which was a girl he didn't want a girl and she didn't want another kid so this was the birth of the unwanted child " in another meaning she was me" she was not beautiful like them she was tan and not fair her hair was curly black not straight blond she was a black hole in the family no body loved her even her grandparents , every time her parents said that she's their daughter they laugh on them and think it's a joke when they say it's really our daughter people shocked and be like HOW?!  I live like that every one hate me and not believe that they are my family I ask them nearly everyday if I were adopted I ask everyone I convinced myself that I were adopted to not be hurt whenever someone shocks because of my family even the classmate didn't believe that they are my parents so I didn't make any friends in kindergarten I hated them because their family loves them and they look like them I felt unwelcome, I didn't want to go to the kindergarten anymore I cried to them and said I don't want to, I couldn't stand two weeks in the kindergarten I felt like I was a monster every time I came back from the kindergarten I hid in the closet and cry no one knew about that , after a year it was the time for elementary school and we moved to another country they talk differently I couldn't understand what they were saying until I learned their language I didn't make any friends  , I barely succeed in all the subjects it was just mind blowing because my mom would stay all night to study with me I think it was because my dad wasn't with us we were alone in the new country, it was hard time especially at the parents day every one should bring their parents I didn't want to go but my mom took me I was sad because everyone one were with their parents and I'm with my mom I missed my dad .
After 1 year my grandma * from my father side* died and we returned ....

What do you think ? It's my first story and English isn't my native language so please be kind 🌞
Bye till the next chapter❤️🌸