HEART TO HEART❤️_❤️

19

I got home and the boys help me upstairs and after they help me I told they can leave so they left I took a shower and put on some sweats and that's all I was looking on my phone and I came across Alicia keys unthinkable

Song

Alicia keys unthinkable

Moment of honesty

Someone's gotta take the lead tonight

Who's it gonna be?

I'm gonna sit right here and tell you all

That comes to me

And if you have something to say

You should say it right now

You ready?

You give me a feeling that I've never felt before

And I deserve it, I think I deserve it

It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore

And I can't take it

I was wondering maybe could I make you my baby

If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy?

If you ask me I'm ready, if you ask me I'm ready

This isn't exactly how it should feel if it's meant to be

Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?

If we gonna do something 'bout it

We should do it right now, baby

You give me a feeling that I've never felt before

And I deserve it, I know I deserve it

It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore

It is what we make it

I was wondering maybe could I make you my baby

If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy?

Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm saying

If you ask me I'm ready, if you ask me I'm ready

Yeah, yeah, saying

Why give up before we try

Feel the lows before the highs

Clip our wings before we fly away

I can't say I came prepared

I'm suspended in the air

Won't you come be in the sky with me?

I was wondering maybe could I make you my baby

If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy?

Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm saying

If you ask me I'm ready, if you ask me I'm ready

If you ask me I'm ready, if you ask me I'm ready

It almost brang me on the brink of tears

Then I came arcross a nother song it called breathe me by sia

Breathe me by sia

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,

Yeah I think that I might break

I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

Be my friend

Hold me, wrap me up

Unfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up

And breathe me

I cry my eyes out thinking wtf is wrong with me the words I've been called

FLASHBACK

U so ugly Halle just kill yourself u stupid ass bitch I hope u died that's probably why u mom hits u because u fucking ugly u dumb bitch SLAP please stop NO BITCH SLAP PUNCH KICK HIT all the words I think of slut,ugly,bitch,dumbass,stupid ,fat,fag,gay ,

Maybe I'm all those thing I got my jouneral out and starting writing

I don't love myself as much as other people love through all the happiness is the pain that u really see I don't see me I'm the only one that I'm scared to be I have fears like people but my fears are me and to not have pain and scars on my arm everyday looking at them always say why things have to be this way it hurts to not see u in minor and know that the end is coming nearer but u can't feel your breath when u cut the words I hate me in your chest sometime I think it's better for me to disappear so I can't handle wats near getting called fat ugly everyday not know when are in the way crying your eyes for days pain regret and scars scared to show who u truly are u never know how hard it can be being who u thought it was me now u see I hate myself the way I am and to write the words in your I ugly fat and your self harm is not know longer alarm know everyday people can't see blood dripping from your arm the life that your living is sometimes mistaken by the life that your giving saying I will not give up though all the pain but tears are falling from your eyes like rain so instead of yelling and screaming your life is always dreaming of the u could have been u but u chose this wat u wanna do another scar another until u finally say I'm just done u can't Handel it u just wanna quit people say why give the that god chosen u to be this way always thinking wat happends sometimes u feel like your shrinking everyday is like a breath step away u can't Handel it until just say fuck it I quit scars keep u back from who u truly are. .......maybe I should kill myself again

I took out the knife and cut and http://i50.tinypic.com/2192qlt.jp this what her arm look like but just imagined it black anyway back to the story

I just cures and kept cutting and cutting and cutting

Be my friend hold me NO ONE LOVES ME IM SMALL IM STUPID IM A SLUT I HATE MYSELF AND I JUST KEPT CUTTING

Ray POV :I heard Halle crying me. And the guys ran up the stares to see Halle room lock HALLE OPEN THIS DAMN DOOR FOR I BUST IT DOWN :HALLE:NO EVERYBODY HATES ME I HATE ME I SHOULD JUST DIED AND KILL MYSELF NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE ME IM JUST DONE WITH THE LIES PEOPLE CALL ME STUPID SLUTS LIKE YALL USED TO I HATE MYSELF MAYBE YOUR RIGHT RAY I SHOULD JUST KILL MYSELF "RAY" HALLE NO U SHOULD NOT U GREATER THEN U EVER IMAGINED U STRONGER THEN U THINK U BETTER THEN U KNOW UR BEAUTIFUL I KNOW I SAID SOME OF THE DUMBEST STUFF BUT HALLE ERIN HERNADEZ BLUE U ARE THE GREATER THEN U EVER IMAGINED THAT BECAUSE YOUR U AND I LOVE THAT ABOUT U I LOVE...u hello Halle HALLE HALLE HALLEEEEEEEE RAY BUST DOWN THE DOOR SOME ONE CALLED THE AMBULANCE PLEASE NOW "Prince GO COME ON

HOSPITAL:Halle's family right here ray said um Halle lost a lot of blood idk if she will be able to make it well can we see her of coursed Halle I love u I just want u to know that ray said Halle I love u too ray but I'm not gonna be able to make it u know that Halle said touching his cheek but as soon she did her breathing got slower her face got colder and beeeeeeeeep no no no no no no please no Halle I love u I will always love u

Cliff hanger will Halle die or live in the next chapter💉😩