𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙩𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙣𝙤𝙬 - ꜱᴛʀᴀʏ ᴋɪᴅꜱ.

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You used to call me babe and some stuff like that. Chan. You know what else came. After awhile you started calling me by name. I was sure it was going to end but why did you still keep up with me. Why didn't you walk out of the door and said goodbye. You still wanted to be with me.

I'm wondering if he wants me back in his life. I guess not I was so disgusting to him. I started to be so controlling and didn't even see what you actually wanted from me. You wanted love. That I couldn't give to you.

3rd june, 2018.
3 months and 21 days.
That was the date when we broke up and God I miss you.

I miss you so bad. Why did we broke up when I still have so strong feelings for you?

I was angry.

I was mad at you.

But also I was so disappointed in my because I fell for your lies.

I want you back. I miss your cuddles. The way you always lay beside me and just put your arm around me when I was freezing. The nights were you just couldn't sleep because you had so much stress in your life but I never tried to ask what has happened to you. And whenever that night came you always talked to me even though you know I was asleep. Well sometimes I was and sometimes I wasn't.

I remember that one night you started crying. You cried so much. When I heard him crying I woke up. I was confused and looked dizzy at him. He was surprised as well and couldn't handle it anymore. Since I was looking down at him he suddenly grabbed my waist and pulled me down to him. Tears rolled his cheeks down and with every tear he grabbed me tighter and tighter. He was so helpless but it was cute.

So I fell asleep at the top of him with his embrace on me.

If you (read) hear this you need to know that I really miss our late night cuddles and how embarrassing it was for you when I saw you crying. You couldn't lift your had up and laughed in a panicked way. It was so cute you know? I want you to come back to me. I don't want you out of my life.

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24th September, 2018

break ups suck o0ps