Broken Till Dawn

2: Brothers??

^^^SHAWN BBY! 

      Beep. Beep. Beep. "UGHHH CAMERON DALLAS!!" I was very irritated, he kept sneaking alarms into my room so I wake up.

"What?" He says groggily and HE sounds annoyed.

"Stop with the alarms!!"

"No"

"Why?"

"Because it's funny" he laughed. I rolled my eyes and a mischievous smile creeped on my face. I threw a pillow at him and laughed very loud. He narrowed his eyes, and I visibly gulped, much to his amusement. He laughed again and walked off. I rolled my eyes and got out of bed. I walked to my bathroom and got ready. My family had some... complications. Basically my dad and mom died and it was all my fault, I had 5 older brothers, 4 of whom I was mad at. Cam was the only one that stayed. The rest blamed me and left. From oldest to youngest it goes, Branden (22), Cameron (17), Ryan (16), Kevin (15), and my twin, Grayson (14), who was 15 minutes older than me. As I was showering, a tear fell down my face, I couldn't control the sob that escaped my mouth. I cried my heart out. Cameron was downstairs and my music was playing loudly so I know he wouldn't hear me. Basically our parents died in a car crash and it's my fault. My usually overprotective brothers packed up my stuff and told me to get out. I had to leave. They made me.

*Flashback*

"I- I'm so sorry. I-I-I—"

"Save it." B (branden) said through clenched teeth, clearly not wanting to deal with me.

"B, Ry, please." I started, suddenly him and Ryan turned to me, their eyes looking at me with no emotion, no sign of anything, but hurt, and anger, the anger pierced through me and I broke down. The didn't even bother with me, they just said, " It's Ryan and Branden to you" and walked out. Kevin clenched his jaw as he saw me looking at him with pleading eyes. He turned away and walked out as well. I couldn't believe it.

My twin couldn't look at me. "Gray gray-" He turned his head so fast I got whiplash.

"It's grayson to you, SIS" he said, with hatred visible on his face, and laced throughout his voice. But the worst part came...

"Look at me." I said, trying not to be scared, at least to make sure they didn't hear me. He scoffed and looked my way. He slowly turned his head, but looked into the dead of my eyes, trying to find something, something to make him love me again, but all I saw in his eyes was hate. Not a hint of love for his twin, pure anger and hatred for the girl who killed his parents. Before he even said it, I knew I was no longer his twin. I was no longer with him, he was gone, I lost him. But his normally green eyes, just like mine, were a dark dark green, almost black. It didn't hurt until he said it.

"I don't have a twin." And then I bolted through the doors of our house. There I saw my bag packed up, it was all done. They were kicking out there 13 year old sister. I cried. I cried so much. But then the unthinkable happened. Gray walked through that door stared at me. He walked up to me. I stood there almost crying (again). My head moved to the side. I looked up and felt my right cheek to see the blood smeared on my face. He leaned in right next to me and smirked, whispering in my ear, "I hate you and I'll never forgive you Alana we aren't related why don't you fucking kill yourself that would be a huge favor." I stepped back in shock that my own twin would say that. None of my brothers looked taken aback by his actions. Except one.

"GUYS ARE YOU INSANE?? HER TWIN JUST SLAPPED HER AND YOU ALL ARE KICKING HER OUT!! IM GOING WITH HER BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE IDIOTS." Cam stepped forward with his bag, red in the face from screaming. "Let's get outta here sis." They didn't seem phased at all, only amused. And then they all stared at me and there faces dropped. Once again I was hit. Multiple times. How? Well my twin hit me while everyone was screaming. And they just saw me being abused by the one who was supposed to stand by my side. He was pulled off of me by ry a couple minutes ago, taken away, but I had a bloody almost broken nose, a tear-stained face, blood on my cheek, a huge split in my jaw, and a black eye. Oh and I think one- two broken ribs, and a broken leg and arm. Through my TWIN. I couldn't even think. Now cam was pissed. "WE'RE LEAVING SIS!!" And before we walked out, I whispered, a barely audible, but still heard whisper, and i knew they would be affected by it.

"You guys are not our brothers anymore. You're dead to us now." And without looking at them we walked out.

*End of flashback*

............

As I stepped out of the shower, I was shaking. My birthday was tomorrow. It was also the loss of my family. I haven't contacted them since. It'll be 2 years without them. I always hole up and sulk those days. So I stared at the ceiling all day ignoring my brother's calls. Eventually he gave up and went to sleep. I fell asleep, tears in my eyes, but I wasn't going to cry.

I suddenly woke up screaming and shaking. I checked the time, it's 1:30 am. I had another nightmare. Suddenly I saw something shift. I screamed again louder this time. Cam wouldn't wake up though, I knew it, because he's a deep sleeper. He doesn't know about my panic attacks or nightmares. Suddenly I heard a cocky voice. Yup it was Shawn. He saw me, I didn't interject, I needed someone. "What's wrong?"

"I haven't ever told anyone"

"You can trust me I promise"

"You won't tell my brother"

"No of course not."

So I explained everything to him. The brothers and the pain. The betrayal and my parents death. And he listened so intensively. By the end I wanted to be sobbing my eyes out. Sudden I was enveloped in 2 masculine arms. He put his arms around my arms which were cradling my legs as I rocked back and forth. We just sat like that for a while. When I calmed down he got up to go to his room, but I couldn't be alone. I grabbed  his hand, he turned around, confusion etched on his face. "Stay..." I barely croaked out. I needed him. So badly. "Please, I need someone and my brother is asleep and-" but he shushed me, and nodded. I smiled gratefully at him. We layed down and he wrapped his arms around my waist, and turned me around. He pulled my body to his, and I sunk my head into his chest. Before we slept, I whispered, " You might be my best friend, thank you for this." And before I fell asleep I heard,

"Obviously best friends, and your welcome. Goodnight love."

I smiled, and felt him smile on the crook of my neck. That's all I needed to fall into a dreamless sleep.

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Hey guys!! How's the book going so far? Yes, I updated again. I might change the cover, I already changed the title and I changed the description. What did you think? Please recommend this book to your friends! Thank you 😊