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My strength and my weakness...

Sometimes I feel like I should just stop trying. Like I should stop fighting, stop loving, stop caring, stop dreaming. Sometimes I think the only thing I can be...is a disappointment, and that to me is very scary. I can't become a disappointment all the time. I refuse to live like that. My greatest fear is failing others. Failing my teachers, my friends, my family, my parents...my relationship with God. So sometimes I think what I should be is instead of a disappointment, I should become something that won't mean anything. For example...a nobody. A nobody doesn't disappoint, doesn't fail, doesn't fear. I sometimes think being a nobody is better than being a disappointment.

But sometimes...

I don't think that's how I want my story to end. I not going live as a failure. I going to keep going no matter what. No matter the pain, the sorrow, the constant fear of failing. I'm not gonna let that stop me from trying. Nothing will. Every time I feel like a disappointment, I'll push these feelings away and strive to become something better. To fail is to find the will to continue forward. My will is my friends, my family, My God, and even you. I have all of you to keep me happy. I want you to know...that if you're feeling down or upset or anything that makes you feel like a nobody, I'm here. You don't have to face this alone. It won't be easy, but I won't give up, and I refuse for you to give up as well. Be strong, Be brave, and be happy.