My Secondary School Crush

Is It Just Me?

Remember how in the first chapter I told you guys that he has been giving me "false hope" ? Now im going to go in detail and you guys tell me if I'm just feeling myself.

As you know, after I've decided to like him, you will definitely want to share with someone. I mean yeah, I have a friend that told me to like him but she's from a different class, I mean telling someone from the same class feels okay so u know if u think too much your friend can try to calm u down (?)

While i was sharing with my this 1 friend, 2 of my classmates came to us And accidently heard it. I didn't wanted to expose at all to anyone but the 2 of them at that time so I was like okay just tell them I like someone from the same class. Sooooon, it spreaded across the class. My classmate, who loves hearing secrets about others ( kaypo but I dont blame him cuz I dc?) constantly ask me who my crush Is since he alr knew i like some1 from the same class.
I then told him that it's not going to work. I know my crush wouldn't like me back. I then start asking if they asked among themselves what if they were the one I like.

Here comes his name, my kaypo friend ( let's label him kaypo) told me that if he knew it's him, he wouldn't know how to react. However, he wouldn't stop talking to me. I shared this with my friends, they were shook. One of my friend used to have a crush on him( I mean I dc, I don't get mad when my friends like my crush, it's their feelings not mine). And after he knew , he stopped talking to her. So you see?

OKAY, there's this one time I sprained my back and needed to take the lift. When I step in, he quickly came in ( I mean he could have went down with his friends by stairs). So it's just 2 of us in it. I was in pain(obv tats why I have to take the damn lift) so i was massaging my waist. And when I turn, I saw him staring at me WHILE SMIRKING ( mayb he just look this weird but I dk he don't have to smile??) Then he's like "use tigerbalm la" then I'm like I've tried everything. He then start asking me how it happen, I then explain. THEN i realise FROM LEVEL 5 TO 1, HE JUST KEPT LOOKING AT ME LIKE ???? I was like " don't look at me la so digusting" teacher then came in ( TSK WHY DO THEY HAVE TO COME IN) that's all.

Next, there's this 1 day, we were having some really deep talk. Like I say in the prev story, he doesn't like sharing about himself. This time he did. I've learnt so much things about him. ( I bet I'm the only one HEHE) this conversation between the 2 of us were tense and it's about 2 hrs? So in the middle of some talks. I walk to my friend who was then paying for bubble tea. Before I walk away from him, he said " if you were to be a Muslim, I would have fallen for you" I mean I was walking towards my friend so I didn't react to it. BUT he repeated it to THE OTHER FRIEND. (He said the same thing but the noun change)
So you see again??

One more!!

I sent him a birthday mssg.

To: (name), best friend of (me)
From: (me), best friend of (name)
Date: 20 September 2018
Subject: wishes

Dear (name), how are you? Hope you're doing fine. I am writing to wish u a happy naked day.

Since you have no friends, i hope you'll be gr8ful receiving this letter from me. Here are some ways to be a better person (To me).

Firstly, u can try remembering my birthday.
Additionally, u can also wish me a happy birthday. It will definitely be better to receive a present from u.
However, it is still up to you.

Hope you have a nice day for the following 24 hours. " 16 year old , pop 16 pimple "

Ps. Do not correct my English.

Love,
(Me)

He. Blueticked. Me.

So I was sad (definitely). I thought the next day will be akward for us. And yes it is. However. He start doing shit that made me think like wise. Firstly, I was at my classroom doorway hugging my friend ( I hugged her to annoy her cuz she malay) because I though he was inside already since he always go in earlier than me. THEN I felt a push on my back. I turn and it was him. I was then telling myself, why did he do this? Mayb because he thought I was about to fall on him? But the gap between me and the doorway is SOoobig. So what do yall think? Secondly, do u know how when you're bored you stretch your arm and then u leave them hanging in the air?(LMAO isit just me omg). So I was holding a ruler and I was actually imaginaring the scene of him coming to disturb me. AND HE DID. He came all the way to my seat just to take that ruler away from my hand and place it on to the table BEHIND me.( He sits like 5 sit away btw, that's far) I mean like why u putting effort into disturbing me?
Later that day, I heard from my friend that while I was teaching my friend on some math question, she saw him shouting "shutup la" towards my direction.( no one is siting behind me And everybody cramps to the right side of the class) after he said that, my friend told me that HE laughed to himself. ( like bro u entertaining yourself???)

Now it's time to talk about the last day of school ( SO much happened omg)
I assume he already knew I like him. There's too many people who knew who I liked and I doubt it's still a secret.
So we received cookies from teachers as a token for smth you don't need to know. But u need to know there is about 6 to 7 mini cookies in it. And as I assume, he walked around with the cookie and ate about 3(?) So left about 4. Not sure what he did( like I wonder if he asked other people if they want) but he gave me the last cookie. But Like, not many received the cookie, so if they accepted his offer, there shouldn't be any left right?? So I was packing my bag and a bag of cookie just slide in front of me. I see and it was him. ( gurl was trying not to smile) . I mean like u know we are already awkward. We didnt even communicate verbally. We're literally communicating through actions ( the heck?) So like it's so weird ???
Then soon, it's class photo taking time. I heard a classmate of mine saying " all the girls sit on floor ah" as we have only 6 girls in our class. I went to the corner and sit beside my friend. THEN I heard a voice that sounded like him asking if he should sit. In a blink of an eye, he's beside me. ( dude my heart) I was so akward like ?? I told my friend beside me ( the one that knew I like him) to move towards me cuz I'm akward and she was like " since when you're akward?" So she turn and take a look. Sh3 was shooook! ( we made a heart btw, like me and him). Our siting posture were similar and it formed a heart.(G4YYY)

OKAY, I know this story is too long. But this is the last that happened to us.
After having our pizza as a celebration for last day of school, he was about to leave . I have a water bottle 2 seats away from him and his seats were 2 seats away from the back door. ( doesn't sound important but IT IS) basically, he went out as his friends were leaving. ( i was sad like omg no more communicating :< ) THEN, he came back in, I thought he left something behind, But no! He walked all the way from the back door to the table where my bottle is on ( which is 4 seat from door ) just to flip it upside down. Like making an effort again? Dude I'm trying to forget u!!!

So friends, if you're reading this, do you think he likes me or am i just giving myself false hope?