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B L U E

A month has passed by and everything has been normal. No one talks about me and Zack anymore which is great. He is patient with me and always listens to me, giving me feedback on my problems. 

He hasn't pressured me once to any sexual altercation which makes me drawn to him even more. Other than that we have just been minding our own business. 

My grandma left a couple of weeks ago and I was sad about that. She was very helpful in situations with my mom and with everything that happened to me. Now I have to face my mom on my own.

Mason and I haven't talked for a long time. He is doing it again and he is the one that cuts the conversation short like he doesn't want to talk to me. This time I'm letting him be because I can't make someone talk to me. 

Zack told me he has a little world on his own which I agree, we don't know what's goes through his brain and his change of behavior.

Looking at the drizzling rain outside, I sip on my tea letting the warm liquid go through my body that made me relax in my seat. My eyes flicker to the gloomy clouds that were making all this happen. 

Grace and I decided to come to this small Coffee shop up the street from my house. Why I never notice this before? Probably because of how small and old it is but a comfy and homey environment. 

I turn to Grace who was staring down at her book where she was studying. Grace looks up like she felt me staring at her. "Are you going to come out to your mom?" She stares at me with no emotion on her face. That question just came out of nowhere.

I tug on my hoodie sleeve, not looking at her. "I don't know really. I haven't thought about it," I responded, not really thought about telling her even though she doesn't deserve to know from everything that's happening between us.

Grace sighs as she closes her books, pushing them aside. "You have to tell her Blue. I'm pretty sure it's going to come out one way or another. She has the right to know."

It's not easy coming out to your mom when you don't have a good relationship with her especially when she criticized you for everything you do. "I don't want her to hate me because her son just randomly became gay out of nowhere."

"She is not going to hate you. She is your mom. Some parents are understanding and supportive of those types of things. Trust me I know what I'm are talking about."

I wish I can believe her but with my mom its another story. Ever since my dad left she has been making sure everything was perfect with my life. I love her for that but sometimes I want to explore something different. Who knows I was probably gay from the start.