Beautiful Pain [Jikook] (Under Major Editing)

Chapter 20: Monday, Momday

Author's pov

"Jimin? Are you still up?" Taehyung peeked his head inside Jimin's room to see if he is sleeping, but surprisingly he's not there. He entered the room and searched for the other.

"I'm here Tae." Jimin said from the balcony, staring at the night sky. Taehyung grinned and back hugged him.

"Today was the best day because I get to see you and Jungkook doing okay." He giggled.

"Yeah.. I'm happy too." Jimin whispered, smiling weakly.

"Jimin?" He called.

"Hmm?" Jimin hummed in response.

"I know you miss your mom, you've to admit it. Come on let it out. I'll listen." He says, turning the other who already has tears brimming down his beautiful cheeks.

"I c-can't.. W-why can't I j-just forgive a-and f-forget?" He choked a sob and hugged the other.

"Forgiving isn't hard, but forgetting? It's hard. You know, my mom used to tell me that... If you forgive, you'll feel relieve, but never forget instead think of it as a challenge you've passed. Because if you forget, it may happen again." He states, swaying them both.

"T-thank you Tae, for being there. E-even tho I just know you in a short period of time. I love you my friend." Jimin whispered.

"We love you too Ji. Me, Jin hyung, Namjoon hyung and of course.. Jungkook." He smiled. Jimin laughed weakly, looking up to Taehyung.

"Let's go to bed now, it's getting late. We still have classes tomorrow." Taehyung said. Jimin nodded and walked inside, closing the balcony door. Taehyung went to his own room and Jimin laid down on his bed. He eventually feel asleep feeling himself sink on the soft mattress.

The next day

"Okay class.. I want you all to write a letter for your mothers for this mother's day or week. I know it sounds too childish, but never think it's too childish for it's for your mothers. You may start now if you have materials, if you don't have then come here in front and I'll give you some." Their Art teacher stated. Some students went to the back, taking some materials from their mini locker. Jimin and Taehyung got theirs and started doing the letter.

What should I write? Jimin thought, looking at the blank coloured paper.

"Write whatever you have in mind and in your heart. Remember, tour mothers are your best friend." Their teacher adds.

"Best friend my ass." Jimin muttered, cutting some designs for his letter.. But he has a problem.. He doesn't know what to write.

"Tae? What should I write?" He glanced at Taehyung who's focused on cutting design tapes.

"I dunno. Write what you wanted to say the whole time. Write what you wanted to ask to clear  things out. Talk to her." He said, giving Jimin a reassuring smile.

"Thanks for the advice Tae." He replied smiling, eyes forming into crescents.

•••

Dear Eomma,

I.. Don't know what to say but..
Happy mother's day. Even tho you and appa didn't accept me and kicked me out, I still love you two. But, there's still questions running inside of my head.

1. Why can't you accept me?
2. Why did you two became so cold towards me?
3. Do you not love me anymore?
4. Is it because I disappointed you for being gay?

There's more questions, but that's it for now. I'm mad at you for not accepting me. I'm still mad, but who am I to get mad at you, right? I'm just a useless gay you wished was never born. I just wanted to tell you that, no matter what.. I will still love you and appa. Happy mother's day again eomma. Stay healthy. I love you.

Your ex-son
Park Jimin

•••

Jimin didn't even realized that tears had fallen from his eyes, that everyone's eyes were on him including the teacher.

"Uh Mr. Park, are you alright?" The teacher asked. Jimin snapped out of his thoughts and looked at the teacher, blinking away his tears and wiping them.

"U-um yeah I'm fine. I just remembered something." He whispered.

"Alright, is everyone done?" She asked the whole class.

"Yes Mrs. Han!" They responded.

"Ji? Are you sure you're okay?" Taehyung asked fully concerned. Jimin flashed him a reassuring smile and put his stuffs inside his sling bag. Including the letter.

"Class dismiss. See you all on our next meeting." She bid her goodbye and the students walked out of her classroom. Taehyung and Jimin walked out last. They went to the cafeteria and bought their food.

"Taehyung over here!" Jin shouted, waving at them. Taehyung giggled and ran into them, dragging Jimin with him.

"Where's Jungkook?" Jimin asked. Jin smiled cheekily and pouted towards Jimin's back. Jimin furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and turned around only to meet pairs of beautiful doe eyes.

"I see, you miss me already." The younger chuckled while smirking.

"Y-yah. How's your wound?" He asked.

"It's getting better now..." He answered. They all took a seat and started eating their food.

"Here try this Jimin hyung." Jungkook called for the older, holding a chopstick with a piece of meat.

"No-" He was about to decline when the younger cut him off.

"I don't take no as an answer. Now say ah." He smiled showing his bunny tooth. Jimin just laughed softly and took the piece of meat inside his mouth.

"Delicious right?" The younger beams. The older just laughed, covering his mouth because why not? Laughing while chewing food is bad.

"Mmhmm. Yup it's yummy. Can I have one more bite?" He requested, eyes sparkling.

"Sure, say ah." He says again, feeding the older. The other three shared glances while holding a squeal. Taehyung just shook it off and started eating again. The two love birds continued feeding each other, arguing if the other won't give the other a bite.

"Love birds~" Taehyung sing-sang a mutter with a smug face.