How To Love Caroline Forbes

Chapter 3 - Breathe

Elena

"Hi there.." i invited Stefan into my room and tried to be more friendly than i usually was. Everyone must hate who i am and definitely miss their precious Elena. It was dark but true. I clearly just had her face.

Stefan decided to take a seat on the small chair in my room. I took a place on my bed.

He took a deep breath. Looks like he had something important to say...

"I love Elena.", oh let me guess, he's gonna tell me how he loves and misses her. Great. I rolled my eyes because i knew Stefan would leave me feeling pitifully guilty.

"But...", hmm, i wasn't expecting a 'but'. He looked at me now. Full focus on me and not some imaginary concept of a girl that obviously was no longer here.

"I understand that you are a person too and though it kills me to know that you love Darius and my Elena, who is gone, loves...loved...me..." i never really thought  about Stefan till now. He had lost his love. He had been drifting through life now trying to help me, even though he knew i couldn't love him like Elena. Oh. Gosh.

"I will not particularly like or enjoy but can understand if you do not want to have the memories back..." and for the first time i smiled.

He looked at me and smiled to the best of his ability as well.

I watched as Bonnie slipped into my room.

I mouthed a 'thank you' to the kind Stefan as he left the room to give me and Bonnie some time to talk.

From the fustrated look on her face, i could tell she was not going to talk about sightseeing or the weather or anything other than the whole 'returning Elena's memories' hullabaloo. She looked unhappy and sad. I felt horribly bad for everyone right now.

I knew i was assuming but i felt an immediate vibe from Bonnie.

"You want me to get my memories back don't you..." i stated calmly. 

I took a gulp of air and felt choked.

Was i about to cry? Why?

She looked at me and hugged me. I felt the tears fall from my eyes. Oh lord, i was being so emotional. Come on, you are strong. Come on. Come on.

"Its fine, you're not the only one crying..." Bonnie reassured me as she reclined from our comforting embrace. She wiped her own tears and looked at me with the best imitation of a smile she could pull off. 

I looked at her sideways. 

All these good-hearted people wanted me to bring back the girl they loved.

I would be a monster if i disagreed.

"Maybe you and Elena's memories will co-exist and neither you or Elena will be gone?" Bonnie suggested naively to me. 

Maybe she was right. Just maybe. I didn't want to stop being me. But i knew Elena deserved to exist again.

She would.

Darius

I had hardly any connections i could think of to disturb to research The Queen of Vampires, so i did what any 21st century young adult would do. I google'd her.

The woman that was supposedly my mother.

Ever since i could think, my father had told me my mother was dead. He hardly spoke of her much, i guess the leader of a hunter-witch coven wasn't going to explain how he fornicated with the leader of vampires. I had never even heard of any history containing the leader of the vampires. This must all span many thousands of years ago.