Out Of Blue

CONSOLE

I also want her back

That word keep reapating in my mind. Why just why. Why can't I live without looking at her...without admiring her. Not that I am a lesbian. I just want a friend...good one. I know Camilia is the one. I have a little sister. Yes I do. She is in Canada. And me, stuck in Australia. I hated Ina for leaving me here...all alone. Now I don't know for what she came back- I know...Camilia. My thoughts got disturbed by a notification of my phone. I quickly checked. It was from kwai. Oh fuck...my heart raced. I closed kwai..I just don't become active. I opened the message.

Jisoo: Ara....How are you??

Omg!!! She is back!!! After three fucking years!!!! I quickly typed...then stopped. I just remberd what Ina said when she never replied me after that precious day. "Forget her. She is the one that wanted to leave first." Huh I don't care. She is my sister...And I love her. I replied after the longest 2 minutes of my life.

_Ara_: omg!! Where have you been??!

Jisoo: I can't believe u replied...

_ARA_: Why won't I...

Jisoo: I was the one who left...

_ARA_: I DON'T CARE!!!!

Jisoo: I love you Ara!!!

_ARA_: God I missed it. I love u too!!

Jisoo: By the way. Where r u living??

_ARA_: Uhm..uh..I left Bangladesh..I live in Australia..What about you??

Jisoo: Can u say it's not true....

_ARA_: I am sorry...

Jisoo: Why are u saying sorry!!! I also left Bangladesh!!!

_ARA_: WHAT!!!! WHY HOW WHERE!

Jisoo: haha calm down. I also live in Australia...And I saw u yesterday...the day before yesterday..before that...including today....

_ARA_: （∵）？

Jisoo: Hahaha..I live at ur next door..Here's the number of my house...xxxxxx(house number)
     
                                      SEEN AT 7.45 PM

I opened the main door and went to the house number she gave me..I rang the doorbell. I girl at my age opened the door.. " Aren't u Amea??" I asked. She looked at me fully shocked. " ARA!!!!" I smiled. Someone came behind her. " Who is it- Ara??!!" She also stared at me like her sister. " Yes its me Ara...Amea and Jisoo.." I smiled.

After a long long and the happiest day of my life I left my so own sisters house after hugging her 10 times goodbye. I just love her so much. She is my life. Suddenly my thoughts got distracted by a call. It was Ina. I picked up.

"Hello are you Ara?"

"Yes I am. But who are you. isn't it Ina's phone?!"I started to worry although it was a woman's voice.

" Yeah it is her phone what you said..yes Ina..She got into an accident. I thought about checking her phone list. In favorites your name was at first so I called you. Come soon neither she can't be saved..The Blue Sea Hospital...numberxxxxxxxx( hospital number)....I will hang up first."

She declined the call. My phone fell from my hands. I came to my knees. My tears dripping as waterfall. It feels like my heart is being stabbed. Then I recalled the lady's word "come soon niether she can't be saved". With that I pick up my phone and started to run as fast as I could.

I went to the reception. My eyes looked terrible with all of those crying. I asked her about Ina. She gave me the room number but she is now in ICU. The receptionist told me that. I ran to the ICU room. There I found Mia standing Ina's older sister crying her eyes out. I went to her.
"Mia..." She looked up and immediately hugged me so tight. " Ara...Ina...Ina...I-In-Ina is g-g-gone..." My eyes went big my legs give up. Salted water started to drip from my eyes. "ARA!!! ARE YOU OKAY?!" Mia shouted but I didn't care anymore. I was only thinking about Ina..me..our memories. And was crying ny lungs out screaming out of sadness. But nobody heard as always. It was not on my mouth but in me. I stood up and exited the hospital immediately.

From that day I never went out my room. It's been 2 weeks. I didn't eat. I didn't speak. I didn't stood. I just sat on my bed and crying. Sometimes if I thought my tears end I just stared at the blank wall in front of me then tears came proving me wrong about everything. My phone was always on my nightstand on silent mode. I still saw so many notifications coming every time the light from my phone came I started to scream out of sadness. Because I don't deserve any light in my life. I am the one. I caused her death. Its all because of me. After that day I never tried to communicate her family members. My happiness and all feelings were gone along with her.

I came out of my room after 3 weeks. I went in front of the mirror looking horrible. I went to shower then wore my casual clother. Then I directly headed to Jisso's house. She is all I need now.

I rang the doorbell. Soon after someone opened the door. Its Jisso sis herself. I hugged her immediately and cried my heart out. She just patted my back like she knew all inside me. Soon she dragged me to her room. I cried o  her lap. When I calmed. " Ara....you should have come to me my baby sister. I would have let you cry all day. At least I wouldn't have let you feel alone my baby. Now I am here. I went to your house rang the doorbell for millions times but there was nobody to open the door but you...who was screaming her lungs out...desperate to be consoled. My love my sister. I am always here for you. Come to me whenever you feel insecure. I will feel you secure my baby." She kissed my forehead. I hugged her so tightly. Her words made me cry even harder. " I love you so much my sister. " I said and sobbed on her lap with her caressing my hair so gently as ever.

"I promise you will never ever feel like you are alone in all of these my baby. I love you too my love."

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